Sister,

I would like to remind you of our Prophet Noah, who faced many hardships in his time. He was beaten and insulted, and his obstacles far outnumber yours and mine. Keep in mind sister that the pious Muslim/Muslimah wants hardships to befall them. The more patient we are in obeying Allah tabarak wa ta^ala the more thawab we recieve. There is a story about a man, who would every Friday after prayer donate 101 dollars. He would take a hundred dollar bill and hide it inside of a dollar bill and drop it off. Every Friday, the Shaykh would wonder who placed the hundred dollar bill in the box. The people when they would see this man, they would say, "look at this rich man, with all of his wealth, he only donates one dollar." When that man died, his wife went to the Shaykh and she told him that her husband was the one who was donating the hundred dollars every week. In the end sister, insincerity is the last sin a person loses before reachign the level of waliyy. It is a very hard sin to lose because we must constantly watch ourselves and make sure that what we do is done for the sake of Allah only. Sister, there are many communities which do not prejudge the person. However, I do not ask you to rush to those communities. I ask you to test your patience, and your devotion to this great religion. To worship Allah, love his Prophets, and learn the creed. I will keep you in my du^aa. Let me know if you need anything more.

Muhammadiyoon