You are not aware of the consequences that would result (if you were granted what you desire) because what you seek might be to your detriment. (O soul) be conscious that your Master is more aware about your well-being than you are.
'It is Allah we implore, and whose answer we await, to watch over you in this life and the next. To shower you with His graces, outwardly and inwardly, and to make you among those who; when blessed, give thanks; when tried, persevere; and when sinful, seek forgiveness. For these three conditions are tokens of the servants’ happiness...'
Ibn Qayyim al-Jawziyyah
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I complained to Wakee’ about my poor memory
So he advised me to leave off sinning
And informed me that knowledge is a light
And that the light of Allah is not bestowed upon a sinner