Salam Alaikum, sis.
perhaps we couldn't yet offer much of help as pm is restricted but inshaAllah we shall keep you in our daily prayers dont worry sis everyone has those ups and downs in life, you're not alone; and tribulations are just one of the ways to evaluate our faith, make it stronger + give it much value. Whats a faith when not yet tested, everyone could claim themselves having it then Let's not give up as this life isn't meant to be forever anyway. there's a lot of merry things to look forward to in the eternal ones. well do take good care sis, looking forward to pm with you when you've finished with 50 posts believe me it wont take too long i've been in that 'frustrating' stage.. lol!