I pray so hard about it.... as a matter of fact... my mother is living sepperately from my father now... my brother and sister live their own lives and my sister despices me.... my christian wife is also not happy about my reverssion.... but she tries hard not to show it since I have been a better person ever since... I am away from my family right now for more than a year already due to a project here in Saudi... but I do pray Allah would touch all of them to also discover Islam...

I also realize lately that Islam is a personal journey... each one should take... and that no one can force anyone to embrace it... if Allah wills then no one can stop one from becoming a Muslim.

My Muslim sponsor also told me that I will sepperate or divorce my wife... I really don't know.... and I don't care.... I still don't believe in divorce and if there is going to be one - it will not come from me. I still pray for her and whatever Allah would do to my life.... I will only submit, surrender and obey.

I had another christian lady who wanted me to marry her.... but it seems like she only wanted me and was not really sincere about making a reversion to islam. I asked her to give me a translation of Surrah al Fatihah in her native toungue... since she claimed to be a master of it (the language)... and 3 days went by, she didn't prioritize it and came up with many excuses. I therefore conclude she is not really sincere.

Anyway, I still think sometimes, Sabr is on my menu for these days... I am already happy being a Muslim and I enjoy a life without cares... because it is a fact.... Allah takes care of everything. And I am only focused in my Jihad.... the struggle to keep walking into the straight path. Jihad happens all the time in the hearts and the minds of men... this is the battlefield... within... and we need to pray always so we will be winning all the time against the evil suggestions of shaytan. Alhamdilillah, I am walking under a strong light now than before.

Allah Hafiz...