Asalaamu alaikum brother



There were many companions of the Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) who went through alot of what you are going through


A famous one is Sa'd ibn Abi Waqas:
http://www.islamicboard.com/companio...i-waqqaas.html (Sa’d bin Abi Waqqaas)



I want you to read his story and relate it to yourself insha Allah. When his mother was about to starve herself - so that he would leave Islam - Allah revealed this verse to His Messenger:

"But if they strive to make you join in worship with Me things of which you have no knowledge, obey them not. Yet bear them company in this life with justice and consideration and follow the way of those who turn to Me. In the end, the return of you all is to Me and I shall tell you (the truth and meaning of) all that you used to do." (Quran Surah Luqman, 31: 14-15).