I agree with you. I haven't converted yet, but I plan to very soon. Even though I haven't converted yet, it is still very hard. I'm having a hard time telling my mom, because my whole family is Christian. She knows that I'm thinking deeply about converted but I haven't told her myself. Sometimes she gets angry because I don't believe Jesus is God. Its hard to learn about Islam from Muslims sometimes, because they may have their own opinions about things. Most of the Muslims I know are Somali and they mix a lot of their culture with Islam saying its all Islamic. I wish you the best! I hope things get better with time!