And just dont worry about anything, gotta take baby steps bit by bit, my first lesson i got taught was sabar, patcience, and it does work trust me, my head used to be clouded with this that and the over, but then i just stopped, cleared my head, and become patcient and have left it to allah to gude me at my pace and ive never been happier or felt has close to him, and ive only been converted 4months. inshallah ill grow closer and closer. and has i said in another forum,
religion is about beliving in god, giving your will up to him, ignoring your ego and just pray and worship god how prophet muhamed(s.a.w) showed us. Like the saying, 'one drop when fallen into the ocen becomes nothing' forget our induvidualitys and become the ocean in gods love. all these arguements are pointless to the simplicity of you and your creator.
they were having alot of arguments on the other forum.
wa salaam
kay