to all,

I am in critical need of prayers from my brothers and sisters in Islam.

For 6 years and counting I have suffered from a number of indescribable illnesses which have rendered me practically invalid. They are as follows:

1) Chronic Depression
2) GED (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
3) BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder)
4) OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder)

The last of the 4 is the blockade between Allaah and myself. All I long for is Allaah and His good pleasure, but in the critical condition I am in I'm afraid I cannot pursue my spiritual goals, mainly by the fault of OCD. I am far beyond gone.

If the Lord were to rid me of OCD, this would be enough for me to once again observe the deen and worship Allaah (swt) in joy.

I have offered Allaah (swt) a Bargain; in hope of a personal "covenant", that I will surrender my whole being to Him and live and die in His holy name if I heal. The question is whether He will answer my call.

If the reader is willing to supplicate for me, then please do so generously by making a brief but sincere verbal dua mentioning my name below, since it would count as a direct prayer rather than a written post.

So, please, I ask you to beseech Allaah (swt) to accept my Promise - to 'purchase' my worldly life and goods in return for a cure so that I may once again submit my soul to Him in peace.

Who is it that will lend unto Allaah a goodly loan, so that He may give it increase manifold? Allaah straightens and enlarges. Unto Him you will return. {2:245}

May He bless each and every one of you who have taken the time to read this, and for those who will kindly make a dua to Him in order that He may release me from the shackles of shaytaan (OCD) and accept my offer and my plea, for these, may your Lord reward you from where you would least expect! Ameen.

Wa salaam,

Armin Pushkar