Hi Guys!

Well, here's my question.

I am 36 years old and in recent times find myself attracted to Islam and I now spend much of my free time researching and learning about Islam.

If I did convert, then among my worries would be these. I have experienced a lot of rejection in my life. I have two alcoholic parents (now both in recovery) and two children with two different men. I am now married to a Scientologist but he has left me too, although we still see each other sometimes. I couldn't stomach yet another divorce!!! I didn't have my parents in my life for many years, but recently we have been building bridges. I don't think they would be very happy if I did become a Muslim (they are both somewhat 'oldskool'!) and in my heart, I am terrified of being rejected all over again.

On the other hand, I could not guarantee being accepted by the Islamic community either, as my life up until now has been less than exemplary. I'm not a criminal but I have indulged more than my fair share of men, booze, drugs and tobacco.

I have turned away from all of that now. I know I was looking for something - peace of mind - that cannot be found in the bottom of a shot glass. When I look at Muslims (the ones I have met), it is so clear to see they have what I so dearly want. Faith and peace of mind, that is.

Any thoughts?

Thanks for listening! x x x