^ The grin was an attempt to cover up the pain.

I'm really sorry to hear what you're going through sis. It's really painful being in a situation where parents have their differences with each other and are not mature enough to handle it themselves and bring their children in and hurt the children in ways that they don't even realize.

The only door out is to keep having faith in Allah. Allah is not the cause of your problems, He has the solutions to your problems. Yes, it seems like there is no solution, and nothing can possibly get better, and it all is going to get worse. But inshaAllah there will be a time where you'll feel happiness.

Allah does accept every dua. It may not be willed to happen right this minute, but it will happen, and if not in this world, than in Jannah. Never loose hope in the mercy of Allah sis. Allah is more merciful than a mother is to her young infant. He hates to see us in misery, but He loves to see that we turn to Him even when the world has caved in on us and that we continue to hold onto Him even though we can't see Him.

You're in my duas inshaAllah. I know you don't really wanna trust anybody, and I don't blame you. But if you'd like to talk to me anytime on msn or anything, I'm a PM away. I love you for the sake of Allah, and I hope feel true happiness and contentment some day soon. Just please, don't give up. You're a strong girl, and you can make it through this difficulty inshaAllah!