Life is a test, don't let that test have the better of you. This life is only but idle play and enjoyment but the best will be the hereafter for u if only you but knew. Allah swt says in the quran "Do you think we will leave you to say you are muslims without being tested"?
Try to make everything that you do be a good deed for you, For you own sake do not turn against Allah SWT during this trial of yours because it will only make it worse for you. Have patience and the best of believers are the one's who have patience. Try not to hide everything with a smile, Let your problems out, speak to people who can help because if you keep everything inside the balloon will one day burst just like its occurring now. Communicate, and most of all keep up your communication with Allah SWT.
La Basaa Tahoorun InshAllah