First of all, in absolutley no way am I trying to say that marijuana is halal in islam. I would just like to further my knowledge with this topic, my own life experiences, and hopefully help anyone else who is experiencing the same issues.
I have been a muslim all my life (alhamdulallah) and i am very proud and happy to have islam as my religion. Unfortunatley, when i was a boy, I was mislead to do many wrong doings, but after finally hitting puberty, and realizing what life was really about, I grew more interested in Islam and doing good deeds.
Today, I read quran throughout the day, always trying to remember allah, and I also pray 5 times a day. Occasionally, I smoke marijuana to relieve stress, anxiety, muscle pain, and to relax (I never smoke before i pray or read quran). It has not mislead me to do any wrong doings, and i have been very successful in my life so far (alhamdulallah) acheiving high grades in school, going to be entering university shortly, and very liked among my family and friends. I understand that many scholars have ruled it to be haram because it harms you. Again, in no way am I trying to state that marijuana is halal, but if one were to use it for those symptoms above, would it really be that bad? And also ciggarettes are proven to be worse than marijuana and physically addictive, while marijuana is not, and ciggarettes also give you a (buzz) which is in my opinion another way of getting high, so wouldn't this make ciggarettes haram also? But they are only "markuh" (disliked in islam). I do not smoke ciggarettes. So finally, I was just wondering what the 100% final ruling on marijuana in islam from your prespectives considering my actions are. I just want to further my knowledge in islam and want to get a straight forward answer with some evidence please.