I hope that (the translation of) the following verse can give you some form of peace and relief, as it has for many of us:
But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you;
and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you.
And Allah (God) Knows,
while you know not.
(Quraan: Surat Al Baqarah -216)
Try to look at this, from the perspective that even though you may be hurting as much - in the long run, it is only for the best.
I once heard a beautiful analogy in a lecture:
When God puts us through some form of pain, we often question why He allows this to happen, even though He LOVES His creation.
Its because He knows that the temporary pain that we feel now.....is well worth the great benefits that lie in store for us, as a result of it.
Take for example, a child that is born with a severe physical defect, e.g. a heart abnormality, which requires surgery.
The parents love their child, and would never want to see that child in any form of pain.
But, they realise that for their child to survive and live a healthy life - he needs to go through the (temporary) pain of surgery and all that goes with it.
So, allowing their child to undergo such an ordeal, only stems from their LOVE.
In the same way, our Creator loves us, and He dearly wants the best for all of His creation.
So, consider how much better it is for this relationship to end now, rather than after many years - and then only to discover that this mans intentions were never true to begin with.
We all make mistakes in life.
These mistakes may cost you your time, honour, feelings and much more.
We cant go back and change the past - whats done is done.
But we can use these episodes in our life to learn valuable lessons as well as to introspect within our own lives.
And thereafter to look forward to the future, and ask ourselves where exactly are we heading?
What changes do we need to make to our lives?
What is God trying to reveal to us by placing us in these situations?
For, you should realise that everything in life, happens for a reason.
Irrespective of the experience, God only wants us to RETURN to HIM.
I think there is a reason that you happened to join this forum, at the time of this relationship coming to a close.
Perhaps it is meant to be a means for you to open your doors to something brand new and exciting, God willingly.
So, do not despair from all that has transpired.
Pick yourself up, and whenever your thoughts trail back towards your feelings for this man - remind yourself, of all the reasons why this is for the BEST.
As mentioned, I do hope that you spend more time reading through the forum. It will help you take your mind of things as well. Perhaps you can start here: http://www.islamicboard.com/discover-islam/
And as you can see, our members are more than happy to help you/ answer any questions that may arise : )