Hi brothers and sisters.
I've been convinced enough that drawing pictures of people/animals is haram in our religion. The thing is that, drawing was one of my most favourite hobbies. Now, i'm really depressed about it. Allah has given me artistic ability, and I'm so thankful for that. But now I don't feel like I even want that artistic ability anymore, because I'm not allowed to draw pictures of humans.
I'm not trying to imitate Allah. I just want to draw, because I love to draw comics and such. I'm even scared to use emoticons and smilies. Brothers and sisters, what do I do?
How do I make a suicide that is not sinful. I can't find happiness. I hate that I was even created. I feel as if everything I like to do, is forbidden in Islam.
I used to have ambitions, I used to be happy. I wanted to be an artist, but I found out that the forms of art I like is forbidden in Islam. I dont' know what to do in life anymore. Now I'm scared that another certain "hobby" of mine is forbidden as well. I do not want to say what this certain hobby is, because I'm scared that people might say that it's forbidden.
The hobby is not premarital sex or anything of that sort.
It's a different hobby that's made my life so happy. I don't know if it's forbidden or not. If it's forbidden, then I don't think I can ever be happy in life. Why doesn't Allah just forbid "happiness" in our religion? I wish I was never created.
And please don't tell me that there are many other things to do in life, because I don't care. If this "certain" hobby is forbidden, I just want to end life with out making it sinful.