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04-10-2006
MY mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an
embarrassment. My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She
collected little weeds and such to sell... anything for the money we
needed she was such an embarrassment.
There was this one day during elementary school... It was field day,
and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me?
I threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school...
"your mom only has one eye?!?!"...And they taunted me. I wished that
my mom would just disappear from this world so I said to my mom,
"mom... Why don't you have the other eye?! If you're only going to
make me a laughingstock, why don't you just die?!!!" my mom did not
respond...
I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to
think that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time... maybe
it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but I didn't think that I
had hurt her feelings very badly. That night... I woke up, and went
to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look
at her, and then turned away. Because of the thing I had said to her
earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my
heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye.
So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful. Because
I hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty...
then I studied real hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and
studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the
confidence I had. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own.
Then I had kids, too... now I'm living happily as a successful man.
I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my
mom. This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when... what?!
Who's this?!
...it was my mother... still with her one eye. It felt as if the
whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared
of my mom's eye. And I asked her, "who are you?!" "I don't know
you!!!" as if trying to make that real. I screamed at her," How dare
you come to my house and scare my daughter!" "GET OUT OF HERE!
NOW!!!" and to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, I'm so sorry.
I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of
sight. Thank goodness... she doesn't recognize me... I was quite
relieved. I told myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about
this for the rest of my life. Then a wave of relief came upon me...
one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So,
lying to my wife that I was going on a business trip, I went. After
the reunion, I went down to the old shack, that I used to call a
house...just out of curiosity there, I found my mother fallen on the
cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of
paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me. My son... I think my
life has been long enough now... And... I won't visit Seoul
anymore... but would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come
visit me once in a while? I miss you so much... and I was so glad
when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to
go to the school. ...for you... and I'm sorry that I only have one
eye, and I was an embarrassment for you.
You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and
lost your eye. as a mom, I couldn't stand watching you having to
grow up with only one eye... so I gave you mine... I was so proud of
my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with
that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did... the
couple times that you were angry with me, I thought to myself, 'it's
because he loves me...' my son. Oh, my son... I don't want you to
cry for me, because of my death. My son, I love you my son, I love
you so much.
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