I am blind, deaf, my heart is sealed, and my brain can't understand.... (OP)
The sins I repeatadily commit, knowing Allah was watching when I did them..... I believe has lead to this. Once upon a time I had firm conviction in Allah, but made excuses and did what I wanted to.
And now it's a constant back and forth of whether I believe or not, and I think it's game over done.... I can't believe again.
Because for me, I don't feel any iman. Even nice recitions of the Quran do nothing for me(especially because I don't know Arabic). I feel nothing in prayer no matter how hard I focus on the meaning. I try to look up in the skies and picture Allah and connect with him, but nothing.
And now it's at the point where, if I don't believe now, if to me it just isn't proof enough that Islam is the truth.... why bother following it anyways, because I don't know if there will be a hereafter or heaven and hell.... and if I don't know, then it makes no sense miss out on the fun. Whereas if it is clear to me it is the truth, I can at least try to stay away from it now.
Re: I am blind, deaf, my heart is sealed, and my brain can't understand....
Yes - i became moderate in religion Actually i was having very much thoughts & going through worst times still so i started with being easy with myself-
Kept prayers
Tried on being nice to parents
Working on gooď maners
Stayed away from many sins but did auzobillah but keep on doing tawba.
Ended up being proud to be muslim even if I'm sinniñg as muslims wherher pious or not Says it - focus on keeping belief in Islam & my life has v v v trials that led me finally ease though once i get over with trials bcz wè ought to think good about the mercy & positivity..
I would do commitment more firm InshaAllah but not at the moment bcz if i do more - i feel tossed in fears / scary times/hardşips & it's not jinn or anyother paranormal thing
Fears of hereafter that cannot be borne - affects my physical health & mental health too
So evaluate your situation carefully & then relax.Most imp belief in Islam has to be secured but relax on your own risk...im not going to tell you to be doing sins - keep yourself moderate.thats it!
Don't fret over it all....do things that makes you happy & please stop your thoughts by engaging in healthy activities.
I am trying & i hope you also try by reading Ahadeeth that speaks of ease for Muslims lives.
(I didn't know this earlier & harmed myself because i thought of religion being harsh)
Re: I am blind, deaf, my heart is sealed, and my brain can't understand....
As salam Alaykum sister i’ve been suffering with doubts myself which has never occurred to me before what i’ll say is find way to prove to yourself islam is true watch a video called why islam is true on dus dawah and make dua during prayer ‘We are closer than their Juglar Vein’ Allah says : were they created by nothing or did they create themselves…
this is a rhetorical question so we accept there is a creator for this creation so what is our purpose do you think he will just create us and let us cause chaos in his creation it doesn’t make sense God is wise we can see that throughout his creation so we must have a purpose. i can keep speaking but i’ll advise you to research , take the means and leave the rest to Allah , may Allah guide us.
i know it’s hard but try to stay strong and if your struggling speak to someone sometimes it helps.
Re: I am blind, deaf, my heart is sealed, and my brain can't understand....
TIPS for everyone struck with Duhayma fitan of doubts & trials making people kafor & momin everyday & night as we are told in hadeeth regarding Duhayma fitan
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Belief
Love Allah
5 times prayers
Dua for parents
Nice to mom
Good character
15 mins ibadah everyday
Charity for the ummah
Learning 10 mins on Islamic board
Share Islamic knowledge from authentic sites.
Humility but not humiliate oneself for others otherwise it becomes way too much
Shun out ocd onset w/o fear as it gets outta control
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Things to do REGULARLY if you wanna keep to Deen & enjoy life to benefitting your imaan:
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Read on Duhayma Fitan
Remember good dreams
Moderately practice
Read duas
Eat & sleep on time
Spread cheerfulness
Hobby,work that you enjoy aligned with your career,ibadah,exercise,self care,hangouts,going on long drives ,healthy habits
No un necessary talks with opposite genders
*Lesser sin is better than bigger sin*
Don't struggle to keep deen.
Last edited by SoldierAmatUllah; 06-08-2023 at 09:05 PM.
Re: I am blind, deaf, my heart is sealed, and my brain can't understand....
Selaam Alaykum,I would realy like to talk to amina777 in this thread, i lost my imaan and strongly believe my heart got sealed and i also hear no waswas, she the only person i found that mentiont not hearing waswas anymore. I dont know how to come in contact with her. Would really like to know if her situation got better
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