I am blind, deaf, my heart is sealed, and my brain can't understand....

Very Important regarding your issue.Its faced by mostly best of Momineen & I personally know them .It does involves Imaan&kufr thoughts or feelings for the people I know due to their trials ,feeling despair,feeling ALLAH hates me or give up Islam,thoughts of apostasy etc .I actually talked to these youngsters & they seemed good & in private messages,telling me of their waswas & how they feel etc.

It's happening to almost everyone,as its Narrated in authentic hadeeth. Some have realized it & are working to give its awareness &are terrified ,others are oblivious to it or when it slaps them ,then they get this worry! Or maybe it's happening, just they don't know!

❝Several of the Salaf were quoted as saying when Fitan come, only very, very, very few will see the truth. When there is Fitan, only few of the few of the few will know how to analyse them. Make Istighāthah to be amongst them or at least see the reality of the Fitan. After time passes on Fitan and they end, then everyone will see the reality of what the few were trying to tell them. That is what happens during all Fitan. The problem for many is that after they see the reality, they have already lost their Deen.❞

~ Shaykh Ahmad Jibrīl(حفظه الله)


What is Duhayma fitan?

From 'AbdUllah ibn 'Umar, radhiyAllahu 'anhu, who said: "We were sitting with the Messenger of Allah, salAllahu 'alayhi wa-sallam, and he mentioned the fitan, and mentioned many of them, until he mentioned the fitnah of al-Ahlas.

So someone said: "O Messenger of Allah, and what is the fitnah of al-Ahlas?" He said: "It is fleeing and plunder.

Then the fitnah of as-Sarra', its corruption will from under the feet of a man from my household, who claims to be from me, but he is not from me, for my allies are only the pious.

Then the people will unite on the leadership of a man like a hip-bone on a rib. Then the fitnah of ad-Duhayma', which will not leave a single one from this Ummah without giving him a slap. Whenever it is said that it has finished, it will continue longer

. A man during it will be a mu'min in the morning and a kafir in the evening, until the people become two camps, a camp of faith with no hypocrisy, and a camp of hypocrisy with no faith. When that happens, then await the Dajjal on that day or the next."

Narrated by Abu Dawud, kitab al-fitan.



Brief explanation of Duhayma fitan:

Fitan of Duhayma includes calamities as tantamount to Imaan for the strong believers & likewise for every Muslim.

It involves evil desires led by calamities&continuous trials&till people are shaken in Imaan-

Doubts get in the way of all those claiming Islam.

And people whoever will be saved from ALLAH Ta'ala's favour will be saved from being drowned in this fitan&its a fitan that's long.-

In this fitan,people are shaken tremendously, with thoughts about ALLAH Ta'ala.

Sometimes through major calamities & sometimes through minor.

And then other things that leads to pure shaking trembling of best of Muslims&that's when we have heard from many people that such&such has fallen bcs some give in&others continue struggle&all aid is with ALLAH Ta'ala.

May ALLAH Ta'ala protect the ones who were apples of eyes of pious as those knowing it's dangers are horrified&terrorised.


But victory is for ALLAH Ta'ala & His Prophet PBUH & those who despite all calamities busy themselves with Repentance&Tawheed treading the path to victory after hardships.

Such will be sifted as momineen&others without Imaan on the end of Duhayma

.I seek protection of ALLAH Ta'ala for myself,my immediate family &my best friends far&may ALLAH Ta'ala have mercy on Sana Al Harbee ,RahimUllah.Aameen

Nourish your soul with Tawheed&glorifying ALLAH Ta'ala for this will beautify you outwardly though after trials&patience/reliance & then Outward beauty.

Trust ALLAH Ta'ala, The One ,truthfully if it's He who you Worship.

Dear sisters who I support&respected brothers who are down.

With Tawheed,you can achieve anything you want.



Since,I'm repenting & in midstof horrible trials ,reading more on this fitan is very beneficial,biidhnIllah!


I advise all to keep wary of the Duhayma fitan which is the Greatest fitan before Dajjal! May ALLAH Ta'ala forgive us all & guide us towards righteous path&good end!

Please don't be oblivious to Fitan lest it consumes you!

From an authentic site:

Reference is At-Tuwaijari's Itihaf al-Jama'ah, I, pp. 75-81 (may Allah be merciful with him):

Chapter: What Has been Related Regarding a Fitna that Will Sweep the Arabs Away

Upon 'Abdullah ibn Amr (may Allah be pleased with them both) who said: The Messenger of Allah (sallallahu 'alayhi wa sallam) said:

"There will be a fitna that will cleanse (tastanzifu) the Arabs - its dead will be in the Hellfire. During this time the tongue will be more severe (ashad) than a blow of the sword."

Reported by Ahmad, Abu Dawud, At-Tirmidhi and Ibn Majah. At-Tirmidhi said that this hadith is gharib

At-Tuwaijari then comments on the narrators of this narration and after concluding that the hadith is hasan he proceeds to explain it as follows:

"[Regarding the Prophet's] statement 'cleanse the Arabs,' Ibn Al-Athir and Ibn Al-Manzur have said: It means it will encompass them in destruction.
End of Tujawiris words.

Regarding the Arabs killed in hell means those who will divert from right path,who Will doubt ,or not trust ALLAH Ta'ala & live on Tawheed.
The rest those who are killed on Deen will be InshaALLAH, Shuhada as they been slaughtered by kuffar

This fitan comes at times with greatest calamities being upon Deen,shaking faith & to some get caught in fitan during little calamities.

MANY momineen are suffering greatest degree of tortures & many people without Imaan also suffers alot of calamities. That's why successful is the one who clings to Deen like it was mentioned that a time will come when clinging to Deen will be as handling a burning coal.

That Includes extreme calamities & evil world appealing so whoever will stand strong ,seeking help of ALLAH Ta'ala & fall & strive again will be under mercy of ALLAH Ta'ala.

format_quote Originally Posted by .alhamdulillah.

My iman was in a much better place back then when I made the account. Nowadays it is all over the place, left and right, up and down, but more so my iman is on the weaker or non-existant side lately.


I am still praying 5 times a day, getting up for fajr, reading Quran at least a little a day, making dua.....

But I feel like what am I doing if I don't have firm belief.... but then something, I just can't explain what is, is keeping me from stopping to do those things.

Have you tried Ruqyah?

Listen to Surah Baqarah frequently or recite it as much as you can In sha Allaah.

It could be (not trying to scare you) that you are afflicted with something. But I could be wrong. Don't lose faith.

May Allaah subhanahu wa ta'ala protect you. Ameen.

format_quote Originally Posted by .alhamdulillah.

I will try to summarize what I think my issues are:

1) Throughout one day I feel like I can go through feelings of iman and feelings of kufr multiple times... Just don't know why.

2) I sinned and sinned knowing it was wrong and I know it is wrong to lose hope in the mercy of Allah, but sometimes I just feel like I went to far and crossed to many lines that now Allah is just angry with me....

3) From an intellectual perspective, everything point to Islam being the truth, but that ah ha moment isn't happening and it just isn't all clicking, and translating to certainty and conviction...perhaps to a damaged heart???

4)I think this is shaytan.... I am trying to be a perfectionist in every way, and whenever I do something wrong I feel like I am commiting a sin and it is unacceptable, which is making practicing Islam difficult... some examples....

• when washing dishes, if I leave the water on between dishes, I feel like I am wasting water and commiting sins knowingly
• when doing wudu, if I leave the water on without using it, same thing...
• when only going up and down the stairs for a couple minutes, if I leave a light on or something, I feel I am wasting electricity and need to constantly check to see if I closed the lights
• sometimes it is just easier for me to eat with my left hand, like when using the computer, but if I do that I feel like I know it is wrong, I just can't do it, even if it is little....
• sometimes I don't feel like doing a sunnah prayer, but if I don't do it, I feel like I am commiting sin and doing wrong and it just overwhelms me...
• or if I am at the masjid and try to do extra prayers or anything, I feel like I am doing them just so others can watch me, so then I don't know if I should do it or not.....

And then when some of those feelings go away, I am like, it can't be from Allah who helped them go away, they just somehow went away...????



I feel like all the marijuana I have smoked over the past 4-5 years and just messed me up in the head....

It's not the marijuana brother.

Read my above post In Sha Allaah.

Please try self-ruqyah, or if you can, go see a Raaqi.

From what you have said, it seems like extreme case of waswasa and/or Jinn problem.

I'm not an expert, and this is mere conjecture, but it's better to get it checked out In Sha Allaah.

Also - please continue with your prayers, and Qur'an, and add to that your daily adhkaar.

format_quote Originally Posted by .alhamdulillah.

The sins I repeatadily commit, knowing Allah was watching when I did them..... I believe has lead to this. Once upon a time I had firm conviction in Allah, but made excuses and did what I wanted to.And now it's a constant back and forth of whether I believe or not, and I think it's game over done.... I can't believe again.Because for me, I don't feel any iman. Even nice recitions of the Quran do nothing for me(especially because I don't know Arabic). I feel nothing in prayer no matter how hard I focus on the meaning. I try to look up in the skies and picture Allah and connect with him, but nothing.And now it's at the point where, if I don't believe now, if to me it just isn't proof enough that Islam is the truth.... why bother following it anyways, because I don't know if there will be a hereafter or heaven and hell.... and if I don't know, then it makes no sense miss out on the fun. Whereas if it is clear to me it is the truth, I can at least try to stay away from it now.

you have to control it. None help you but you.

Salaams to all.

I cannot give you verses and other literature to help but I can try give certain understanding.... hopefully.

The story starts with the mission of Satan when Adam was created and Satan's solemn oath to lead mankind astray.

Astray simply means to go away from the correct path or direction. In this case, from the path Allah has ordained for us.

Satan knows and has interacted with Allah, yet his pride (and hatred) towards human causes him to take a path bent on our destruction and his own.

He knows his own future in the hereafter but acts against his own betterment.

I have combed through the Qur'an more than several times to find meaning and clarification on many topics over the years and have found human beings a mirror image of Satan in finding 'excuse' to deviate from the path.

The Qur'an cited every conceivable reason why a person should want to disbelieve.

Waswas is the easiest and any wishy washy reason is good enough..

So at the end of the day, Satan, if he cannot remove faith in you, he will fight to create a seed of waswas that eventually darkens you and you slip.

Satan believes in Allah. He chose his destiny because he wants to prove to Allah that we deserve hell out of spite. Until qiyamah he is still free to seek forgiveness from Allah but he does not.

The question is then about us..... I am always tempted by the world pleasures, by the gains we can easily make (via dishonest ways) stealing candy from a child. One is easy and instant benefits and little work.

Eventually, if we are decent beings, we would realise that this is not an appropriate action. To move away from this, we now have to work, perhaps way harder than you have ever done and have to be patient for the result.

You will want to revert back to the easier method of stealing. But the harder choice is to stay on the course of honest work.

As I have said, Satan only wants to distract people from fulfilling their duties to Allah.

You have done just that by falling into one of his traps that leads you astray.

I know that I will be asked about my prayers, my fasting etc (whether I admit or deny it) so do I want to do it or not?

If I have fasted and done my prayers then it cannot be said that I didn't do it whatever my intention. So, what was the intention why I didn't do it when I know already that it is an obligation.

If you choose the world, Allah will make it pleasant for you and remove hereafter from your psyche... You can, if your mind tells you that you have gone astray and want to come back to the path, still strive towards it, very much like Satan, he can still seek forgiveness and bow to Adam but he chooses to obstinately stick to his anger and revenge. Reflect on how this attitude is in a lot of believers.

What is Duhayma fitan?

From 'AbdUllah ibn 'Umar, radhiyAllahu 'anhu, who said: "We were sitting with the Messenger of Allah, salAllahu 'alayhi wa-sallam, and he mentioned the fitan, and mentioned many of them, until he mentioned the fitnah of al-Ahlas.

So someone said: "O Messenger of Allah, and what is the fitnah of al-Ahlas?" He said: "It is fleeing and plunder.

Then the fitnah of as-Sarra', its corruption will from under the feet of a man from my household, who claims to be from me, but he is not from me, for my allies are only the pious.

Then the people will unite on the leadership of a man like a hip-bone on a rib. Then the fitnah of ad-Duhayma', which will not leave a single one from this Ummah without giving him a slap. Whenever it is said that it has finished, it will continue longer

. A man during it will be a mu'min in the morning and a kafir in the evening, until the people become two camps, a camp of faith with no hypocrisy, and a camp of hypocrisy with no faith. When that happens, then await the Dajjal on that day or the next."

Narrated by Abu Dawud, kitab al-fitan.


THIS is whats going on ....keep praying,doing good deeds ,little things matter alot .....no need to be so much extremists ...no need to worryabout sins of kufr esp ...as its a trial & Allah knows it -many Muslims suffering from it.

I have crossed boundaries but i know i cannot just give up.I started doing some worldy things - online consultancy for Corporates wellbeing...i enjoy it ,Alhamdulillah ...i incorporate islamic teachings with worldly advises ...i get 10 hrs of bad thoughts at times then it changes into feeling mercy from Allah .

This is happening bcz we were on extremes & it had to happen & is happening to many because it would affect all believers..Fitan are real .Seek protection of Allah (azzo jal)

He is not angry ...Nopes. He wants us to be easy ,understanding its a fitan & whatever happens as a trial,we are excused.



Moderation
Extremists are doomed
Whover will be strict ,Allah will be stricter with him
Expecting best from Allah is an excellent act of ibadah.




In harsh times of the day,do world stuff - ofc in moderation but relax relax ....dont give up prayers even if its just actions.

Dont give up.

Because i learnt thisall with extremely excruciating painful trials with knowledge experience & horrifying fears alongwith mercy.

It aint easy & Paradise awaits us for clinging to Deen ...even belief can do wonders.

I think about past nations stories -how Allah (Azzo Jal)forgave the murderer of 100 people,prostitute who have water to the dog,the man who was alcoholic but humble ...these are enlightening stories for us to keep to Deen if we are sinful enough.

Keep prayers for each other,do deeds on other muslims behalf & seek forgiveness alongwith a 10-15 mins ibadah routine whenever you feel better ...even if a few days passes by.Just do the commitment with Allah that you would as soon as you recover from the depressive insane & horrible lack of faith& blank hearts.




May Allah protect us from this predicament in any more form.

Aameen