Being serious about my Islam...

**Desert** · 05-14-2020

As Salam alaikum

I am a born Muslim as all you might noticed
I use to pray and fast but not anymore...
First I thought I could go on with only just believing
In tawheed...and avoiding shirk...

But I just did not do prayers or fasting...

It effected my emaan by making it go away...

Like dead faith like a dead end...

I was told I should force myself to pray and fast...
Due to depression and bipolar disease... impulsively

I feel like a kafir...mushrik...because I don't pray and fast...

Please help...

**Studentofdeed** · 05-14-2020

Sister as long as you repent. You will never be beyond Allah's mercy. There were times when I was ignorant and had no knowledge of Islam. Today I am more knowledgeable alhamdullah and try my best to be good. No one is perfect and we all make mistakes and even sin here and there. Don't give up and keep trying. Allah will be more happy than a man who is on the verge of death but found his camel with food and water. Never give up hope sister especially now when the doors of mercy are WIDE open for you

**Hamza Asadullah** · 05-14-2020

Originally Posted by Desert

As Salam alaikum

I am a born Muslim as all you might noticed
I use to pray and fast but not anymore...
First I thought I could go on with only just believing
In tawheed...and avoiding shirk...

But I just did not do prayers or fasting...

It effected my emaan by making it go away...

Like dead faith like a dead end...

I was told I should force myself to pray and fast...
Due to depression and bipolar disease... impulsively

I feel like a kafir...mushrik...because I don't pray and fast...

Please help...

Asalaamu ALaikum,

My sister it seems from most of your threads and posts and threads that you clearly have some sort of mental/Jinn related issues. Have you been to see any psychiatrists/Raqi's?

**Desert** · 05-14-2020

alhamdulillah

This Ramadan I found the answer I was looking for ever since I couldn't pray or fast
So I'm with the hanafi madhab

https://islamqa.org/maliki/seekersguidance-maliki/86339

People who don't pray will also enter jannah...

Will a Believer Who Doesn’t Practice Islam Go to Paradise? - IslamQA
Will a Believer Who Doesn’t Practice Islam Go to Paradise?...

**Desert** · 05-14-2020

I am a posessesed woman I say strange things that I do not remember saying in amnesia...
I have convulsions from the demon

I'm under full posessession just like a doctor and raaqi told me....

May Allaah help the posessesed...

**Desert** · 05-14-2020

I was posessesed since childhood as old as 12
It feels like a dream it feels like walking in a dream

You have no hopes...except some special prayer times...

You have strange movements and convulsion disorders like hysteria...

Your always irritated and have mood swings and depression..

You know your not there anymore...

Like someone else is forcing you to speak his way and act his way...

It's also called split personality if you don't want to blame the demons...

Salam

With grief...

Girl from California...

**Desert** · 05-14-2020

I'm pretty sure it's pyschiaitry problem...not demons..

It wasn't getting better with reading ayat Al Kursi 20 times...

Like a read in a article half awake

Prayer removes demons...

Split personality hysteria bipolar are mental illnessses that don't go away with ruqya they..need duaa though...

Never call a mental illness...a demon posessession...

It's a huge mistake...

Wa laikum as salam

**Desert** · 05-14-2020

What I'm trying to say is mental illness is a not demon posession like my psychiatrist said...

Demons go away with like 1 raaqi session...

Mental illness such as major depression split personality schizophrenia bipolar are life long

It's my experience I was diagnosed at age 12
With mental illness it never goes away...

Alhamdulillah I'm happy now that I discovered it wasn't a demon just to exaggerate the problem...