Shalom. I have a problem and that is I am starting to not love Allah. Why? Because he made me black (African) my relationship with Allah is not good because of this and I am left feeling sad and out of touch with reality. The issue here is that in Jannah I want to be European in nature. I want to be white. None of us get what we want in this world only what Allah has planned for us. I did not choose to be African. It's not my fault. And please don't tell me to love myself or to accept my situation, I won't ever.

I was hoping that in Jannah we get whatever we desire and that all our dreams and hopes will come true. Do you believe that Allah can change my race or ethnicity? Can I be white in the hereafter or in Jannah? I've asked this question before but I wanted to get support and answers to this. I've always wanted to be Anne Morrow Lindbergh or some white women in this life. Please someone help me. Do I have any hope in Jannah or Paradise? Is there eternal bliss for me at all? Will I be able to get what I want?

I also want a new family in the Akiyra. I want a completely new family in Paradise. I want to be in bliss in Jannah but I am having trust issues that Allah will succeed for me. I have been ABUSED by my family and I don't love them, and I don't want to spend eternity with them. Insha allah.

Someone please give me an honest answer and support, help me overcome this. Will there be hope in Jannah? Will I get what I want in Jannah?