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:sl: u know what i mean is a website not an:D exam...:D sky i mean i feel guilty, she couldnt send it to uni something wrong with her computer.
What i meant is i know everything is written as muslims we should say Alhamdu Allah when things go bad or good bad i feel that if i do things perfectly i wouldnt be dissapointed. I know is silly:-[
its not silly...its just that you werent very clear in your first post and we-im guessing others also-- couldnt grasp the connection between your perfectionistness and ur frends assignment..i still dnt bt hey..i get what u mean.
sis. i am also a perfectionist. bt i underwent dramatic bluntening..i know that not a word...maybe i shud say filing...
listen up. perfectionism entails the disrespect, disregard and distrust in and of other people. nothing they do is ever good enough.
i clean the kitchen after my mum..is just not...what do u call it...'perfect'...
bt the funny thing is 'perfect' is relative. my perfect aint the same as your perfect.
regardless, it is called perfectionism...
i wud hang clothes on the line with matching pegs...God forbit i used the drier...i wud vaccum my room, sprinkle it with like vanilla carpet scented powder...list goes on...
i am an editor...for many university journals and im producing and editing a mag of my own...an article which can be edited in two mins...i totally write a new rendition of!!! coz its just not my way..or its just not perfect.
i did an interview with a guy...when i sent him the edited version..he said "it doesnt sound like me"...he was right..it sounded the way i wanted him to...the way i thought the audience wanted to hear him...
its sick really. well, what happened was i looked bak into why i was like this...after i worked that out, i managed to help myself..i started throwing my clothes on the floor...i started unpiking the curtains chain thing,,,i started not waking up at 8am everyday..
i didnt un-height order my bookshelf no...thats not happening...
i had to force everything outta me. i mean..how can taking a shower everyday possibly benefit me when i have so much work to do..have one very two days...ur nt bloody dirty...i was wasting sooo much time on silly things...God..dnt even get into teeth brushing..haha..im still like that...
it has to be a conscious move coz u have to realise it is due to the fact that u dont think others are equal to you..or that u deserve the best..vallahi thats what it is...
keep that in mind...
like..how dare ur friend send it last two mins...how pathetic..YOU wud NEVER do anything like that...???
think of the flaws u do have sis...do u pray all ur salat? yes? do u do them exactly when it adhans?
we shud be perfectionists in important things...try letting go of the silly ones inshallah...its all in ur head and hands..u can do it...u just have to realise how corrupt u mind is for wanting to be perfect....
w/s
sevgi