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**Someone move this to the Advice and Support Section InshaaAllaah**
Sis the ease WILL come....I promise you. Allaah tells us in the Qur'aan that it WILL come. When? Allaahu Aalim
Sis let me share something with you...I couldnt talk to a certain person because of some cirumstances since the past year (roughly), and we were very close. It hurt so much wallaahi it affected my ibadah and everything. A couple of days ago, when I spoke to them, all that pain was forgotten, even if I did speak to them for about 5-10 minutes, it felt so good.
What I'm trying to say is, from the above situation I understood that hadith; "The people that faced hardship all their life, they are dipped into paradise once, and they will say 'we never faced any hardship in our life' ". Coz the pleasures of paradise will make you forget all this hardship.
Sis when I was going through this last year, only my Rabb knows how hard it was for me. Only He Knows the pain I was in. What could I do during that time? Just make dua. I knew that was my only way out because I know that "None can hold back what Allaah gives, and none can give what Allaah Holds Back". I used to get so many satanic wiswas it was crazy. But you know what kept me going? This ayah;
"Verily, Allaah is with the Patient" [Qur'aan, Surah 8, Verse 46]
Something else that takes away my pain is reciting the Qur'aan and wanting to learn parts of it off by heart.
Practical Advice: Choose a Surah you really like, a good recitation of it, and start learning it off by heart. Don't expect to learn it overnight but slowly, step by step, everyday one verse, and InshaaAllaah you will feel so content I can't describe it... Wallaahi It's amazing...
Also may I suggest listening to
this recitation of Surah Rahman by Muhammad Al Luhaidan, it is so peaceful SubhaanAllaah...[it starts at 1:35]
I'm sorry if I haven't been able to help you sis, but you are in my duas InshaaAllaah and just PM me anytime you need to talk InshaaAllaah.