We are born alone and we die alone.
On the Day of Judgement, you will be tested by yourself.
When I began trying to be religious, I thought if I met one good Muslim friend, everything would be nice. I'd have support. Support is a good thing, but as Muslims, our support, imaan should come from our own strength, too.
Oh, this is your test. And any hardship has a hidden blessing. Think of this time to work extra hard on you relationship with Allah (swt)
This site will always be here for you. But it is in your own will that you further into the next step.
Plus, Allah (swt) is Better than any friend or family. Sister, I suggest you to spend some time remembering Allah (swt) and working on that relationship first. Because that will give you everlasting bliss and satisfaction.
Take this time to build your independence and your dependence on Allah (swt)
Be content with yourself.
I once discovered an Emily Dickinson poem.
I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there's a pair of us — don't tell!
They'd banish us, you know.
How dreary to be somebody!
How public, like a frog
To tell your name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!
At first it may seem a little hard to understand
but here's a link that may explain its significance