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I don't feel sad. I did the right thing. I ended it. We were friends for a few months and nothing else, but I wanted him to be Muslim. All we did was ever talk, nothing out of the ordinary. But humans love naturally. He was patient, helpful and listened. He knew I wanted to be a good Muslim (at that time, I was just learning and practicing Islam). He always kept at a space. I kept at a space because I knew how these things worked out like. The minute I felt that something, I ran, I ran far away for the rest of year. I ended that friendship, but it was incomplete because I was incomplete.
I ran into Islam. Was he ever worth it? not a minute! Who could cure my disease, gnawing at my heart for all these years from even a young age? Oh, only Allah (swt) The Greatest. The Best Helper. All the obstacles I faced, hardship after hardship. This is ease! This is strength! This is focus!
With strength, I came back to him and I invited him. His choice, but I will follow the Islamic path no matter what. I depend only on my Lord.
People say there is no proof of God. Then why? then why do we call to Him, when the knife is at our throats!? When we have nothing left, why do we bother with hope? because we see our dependence on God. Our need for Him.
No one (not even him) knew about how I felt about him, but I felt it.
No one knew how I felt about this world. I could only cope alone with the betrayal, the delusion, the life without Islam everyone, my friends, my family, my teachers had fed me. And he only added to the pain.
I lived with it so long.
No man. It's that time. Life is calling.
Gotta do what's right. I told you I want to be a good Muslim.
We've separated our paths right here, right now.
I ask you to follow, but it is your choice.
I don't feel sadness, I feel strength.
I don't feel regret, I feel a new beginning, a new future.
I see the pain of people from around the world.
and it is a reminder, a call.
I'll answer, I'll answer if it is the last thing I do.
Every minute matters.
This is where the journey has brought me.
After every hardship there is ease.