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first of all index123, i am a sister, not a brother. :D I know He forgives, and is the most forgiving. That is great. :statisfie Especially when you are truly repenting. You can feel His forgiveness.
Banu Hashim, I fear Allah. So much. I'm glad I'm not one of the losers.
Scents of Jannah, it's not about blessings etc. I am thankful for what I have now, and I make effort for future aswell. I think I am just overwhelmed by HIs greatness.
"I'm trying my best, so InshaAllah my Lord will accept my good deeds, forgive my sins and increase His blessings on me."
That is great advice. I have to remind myself that I am only human, although I feel Allah (swt) deserves much more than it.
All of Allah's (swt) names are beautiful. I would love to memorize them all inshallah. I really like "Al-Waliyy The Protecting Friend, Patron and Helper". It gives me comfort. and his helping me with this unworthy feeling.
jazakallah all for your input, and may Allah bless you always.