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The problem is, while I'm praying I start thinking, "I'm praying because I have to, I will make Dua because I have to," then I just laugh at myself silently thinking, "Things will only get worse, but I'll carry on praying". I have no faith left in me, and that is the killer.
anything I read, duas, their meanings, stories of repentence, miracles of the Qur'an, nothing, nothing makes me feel better. I'm emotionaly and physically drained, I have no strength left in my weak body to believe anything anymore.
The shaytan has well and truely taken over me. I'm still fighting with the little strength I have left, trying to fight the shaytan. I feel like a failure in front of Allah swt, He gave me tests and I'm failing them miserably.
Please keep me in your duas. imsad
Assalamu Alaikum sister.Sorry my english is bad but I will try to help u.
The red lined phrases is not your words BUT WISPERS FROM SHAYTAN,yes it is wispers from shaytan may he be cursed!!!He is trying to misguide u,make u a disbeliever.Be strong don't let it wisper u,spoil your life,keep praying,make dua,even if u feel like it is not going to be answered,believe me it will be answered,Allah subhanahutaala never ignores his slaves' duas,it will be answered if not in this world,then hereafter InshaAllah,just keep praying and one day u will realise it.never leave faith in Allah,imagine what we were going to do if we didn't have faith.if u truly believe in Allah sooner or later we will go Paradise of course if we will be true believer and only with mercy of Allah InshaAllah,May we all be amongst that people Ameen!!!so why suffering,why bothering,eventually the ease will come InshaAlla,I know easy said than done,I myself now "depressed"but I am trying to fight it,I try not to allow shaytan to feel myself down,of course it is not easy to get over from depression quickly,it needs effort,and only YOU can change your situation,if u go on complaining that u can't get over depression,and won't make any effort,of course ur situation is not going to change,so sister get up and strive for life,take baby steps,start from this:whenever u have bad thoughts like"u will never get over it"say:NO I will get over it,I will live happy life,I will have happy family ,children husband etc..InshaAllah,if u do so,Allah subhanahu taala will see that u are doing effort to change ur situation and He will help u with it,and it will become easier and easier day-by-day,don't expect u will find ease in a month or so,it is going to take long,depends on how hard u work on it.Let me tell u about myself,first days all I did was cry and sleep all day and cry all night,:'(then I said to myself Stop,I will not go on like this,and alhamdulillah day by day I am feeling ease of course some days I do feel sad,cry sometimes,but I realised that I don't cry everyday alhamdulillah,and it is only with help of Allah subhanahutaala,with prayers for him I have been making with duas I have been making to Him,how grateful I am that He made me muslim,alhamdulillah,:statisfieI can't imagine what was I going to do if didn't have faith in Allah,
it is Shaytan's goal to make us measerable and loose our believe in Allah,don't let it!!!Fight it,how difficult it may be.I know that u state is very bad as u think,but you are MUSLIM sister,we have hope that eventually we will get reward inshaAllah for our effort,surely Allah never fails in His promises, imagine what would u do if u were paralised,homeless,no family,and if u didn't believe in Allah,that would be real bad.Allah subhanahu taala has given us great gift "Islam",so whenever I feel depressed I thank Allahu subnahahutaala that he has guided me to the straight path to Islam,I think to myself it is much better to live whole life in misery being muslim (difficult though)than living happily life being kuffar,so sister please don't despair in Allah's mercy (eventually with mercy of Allah u will go to Paradise,and if u make effort u will live happily life as well, Inshaallah,surely after every hardship there will come relief.if u even don't believe in it,make uoyrself believe in it :mad:
see, in your first post you asked us not even to bother in replying,now u ask to remember u in our duas,I am very happy to hear this,it proves that you aren't that bad and negative as you sound to be,deep inside you are very kind person I feel it,it is just you suffered so much as u think,in real there are lots of people in much more difficult situation and believe me they wish they were in our situation,it is as if me feeling good,cos we are both suffering from depression,it is good sign,InshaAllah I will remember u in my duas,I prayed for you yesterday as I read your post in ummah.com,but I was sad as I saw it was closed I was going to post u and found out it was closed,and do u know why they closed it?
sis,try not to offend people who are trying to help you,we here spending our time in typing trying to help u sincerely and u offended some of them,I can understand that u are suffering,but it doesn't give u right to offend people,try to be nice to people,and in exchange Allah will be nice to you inshaallah,maybe that is why as u sayed all your friends went away from you,if u replied to all of them like u replied on ummah even the truest friend can't endure that,imagine u also would turn away from friend like you,don't get offend,I am trying to explain that what u are doing is only harming yourself,we can go away but u can't,so try to find new friends,if u offended old ones go and ask forgiveness and try to be nicer to them next time,I am trying to say that with this attetude with this negative you are killing yourself day-by day
I was going to show u one video,watch it and read carefully what that man says,here is the link:
http://theislamicummah.ning.com/vide...inder-must-see
please,don't be negative,pessimistic,after watching this video I thought to myself,how ungrateful I was towards Allah,He has given me family,I can see,I can walk,I can make sujud to Allah,pray make dua,read Quran,I have home,warm bed,food to eat ,water to drink,hope in future,I have health,if I count it goes on and on and on,as Allah says in Quran if we count blessings of Allah we will never be able to end counting them,subhanallah!!!We are so ungrateful,I felt guilt after seeing this video,maybe because of my ungartefulness I am suffering from depression?!So sister think about it,maybe because of our ungratefulness we are suffering?so Lets start to live new,pure life,without envy,negative,ungratefulness,negative thoughts,lets starts to live being grateful towards Allah,He has granted us with so many things that we have,isn't it wonderful being grateful living pure life,with hope,that eventually there will be ease,and doing this u r actually taking step forward in recovering from depression,and inshaAllah Allah will see that we are being grateful and he will grant us peace of mind with wondeful life in this world and hereafter Inshaallah
Sis,there are many people that would be real HAPPY to have our "depressed condition"so think about it,I am not only telling all this things to u,it is as if I am reminding to myself ,I need to do it myself to,so sis lets start new life with HOPE and beliefe to Allah subhanahutaala :) :) :)