I really like this forum but I don't feel very accepted which really hurts me
Sis, you are fortunate. Hamdulillah! You know why? You're one of those people who try and want to help others. We have been corresponding in PMs and I know what a lovely sis you are, mashaAllah. That's a great blessing sweety. Not everyone is like you. You expect love and compassion from your brothers and sisters, and while there are some really beautiful people here who will lift you when your down and make you feel alrite again, there are also some unfortunate ones who even if they have time, haven't got the tawfeek to give a kind word to someone when they need it. Some are just shy and not sure what to say. A lot of members here are young and inexperienced in some matters. Does that mean, there is something wrong with you? No, of course not sis.
Also, some personalities are like beacons to others. They may be very intelligent, witty or funny (or all of those) lol. That is something people can 'see'. They are like beacons. So people are drawn to them and respond to those people because they can see something they admire in them.
And then there are people like yourself, who are kind and sensitive and not shining like beacons but have qualities just as good (maybe even better) that are hidden like diamonds. Therefore, only those who are lucky enough to get close enough see those qualities.
I know you want to see more brothers and sisters offering encouragement, support and kind words. And so you should. We should do it for the sake of Allah. Did not our beloved Prophet (saw) say that the Ummah is one body and when one part hurt, the rest should feel its pain? Therefore you are right to want more. I myself, would love to see us carry the Prophet's (saw) words in our hearts all the time.
But,
most important of all hun, is what we do - not what others do. Just tell yourself that, you'll carry on picking the flowers of imaan by being good to others
fi sabilillah, even if they let you down. You won't lose hun. Only He (SWT) knows how He will reward your patience. If you keep sowing the seed of goodness with patience, inshaAllah in Allah's eyes, you will be from those whom He loves. Nothing is more important than that is it? :statisfie :) (((hugs)))
I love you fi sabilillah sis x :D