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I am in constant worry and fear..:cry:
Please don't.. :)
Too much fear and worry is dangerous because it can prevent us from having hope in Allah's
subhana wa ta 'ala mercy and forgiveness and keep us in a state of despair. This is what the shaytaan wants for us. Allah, Exalted be He, has told us, He will forgive our sins even shirk (subject to conditions), which is the gravest of all, if we repent and seek forgiveness from Him. So we must believe Him when He says that. :)
Allah loves those who put their trust in Him) (Aal `Imran 3:159).
So if you trust Him to forgive you, Allah will love you. And when Allah loves you, the despair will vanish. Allah, The Glorified and Praiseworthy, also mentions in hadith Qudsi, that, "I am, as My servant think of me." Meaning you will find Allah as you believe Him to be. :)
As for when to stop asking for forgiveness. I will say never. Our blessed Prophet, may Allah's peace and blessings be upon him, made astaghfaar 70x a day (someone correct me if I'm wrong). And he was the most magnificent human being to have ever walked on this planet. So in general, it is good to keep seeking forgiveness, as it is better for us, But, Allah likes ease for us and does not want us to make matters difficult for ourselves. So be moderate in everything, meaning that seek forgiveness sincerely and have full conviction in Allah's Mercy. Surely that is better in the eyes of Allah than to seek forgiveness in a manner that it becomes a punishment for you and still your heart remains void of hope.
Also, for your peace of mind, seek forgiveness in Tahajjud (and in sujoods.) It is a great blessing that Allah has given us this opportunity. There is no veil between you and your Lord. Cry unashamedly to Him. You know how a child cries when he wants something from his mother and kicks up a fuss? Know that Allah loves you 70x more than your own mother. Then if a mother's heart will melt at her child's cries, will Allah not respond to yours? I promise you He will. My Lord never lies. :cry:
And I promise you this also. If your repentance is sincere, you will feel peace descend in your heart and you can be sure Allah has heard your pleas. After that, don't forget it but remember His Kindness and worship Him in gratitude. Please don't let the shaytaan tell you Allah won't forgive you. Curse him and seek protection from him in Allah. InshaAllah, you will be alright. :)
May Allah bless you, forgive you, protect you and be pleased with you. Ameen.