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escaper
Salaam alikum
Before start i am 21 years old.
I have done so many sins which i regret like some bad rightful dues, for a year or more i quit islam and became kind of agnostic. i still do not know what do i believe. or do i believe or not? i am confused but even i am confused i always take gusl abdast/cleaning if i get junup. But about my sins, i do not forgive myself and i dont think i deserve to be forgived. i dont see myself someone worthy to become a muslim. simply i do not like my character. my sinful habits. i feel so scared about future feeling so weak and incapable and moron at society.
but i guess subconciously i am seeking for forgiveness if i am questioning all these. please help me about my faith. i have so many questions in my mind which i can not supress by pure faith but also by pure logic. i am a hopeless case i guess
:sl:
i wont give you my story, because theres no need.
but i truly know exactly how you feel.
I left islam for a while, questioning everything i believed in.
going back and forth in my mind about questions of dunya and my nafs. and still constantly sinning everyday!
but first there is no need to supress those questions in your mind.
Let them come, there is no need to fight.
Its Allahs way of revealing to you the condition of your heart.
So you have to make the change.
I would like to say ya you have a choice... but you are my brother muslim, and i will not sugar coat things for you.
You do not have a choice, and thats what makes this beautiful.
Your back because your soul yearns for Islam.
It yearns for the truth.
Especially since your 21 now. You are a man.
Do you eat right everyday? Do you train your body? get proper rest and exercise?
Are you managing your time well?
Are you becoming the master of your Salaat?
or are you just lazy.
Allah is proud to have you as a part of his Ummah.
Do not forsake that gift.
It all begins in the heart. The heart transaltes to the thoughts of your mind. Your thoughts lead to the things you say, then lead to your actions and deeds. Your deeds become your habits, which define your character.
Your Character will reveal you to your DEstiny. S what does your heart say?
First make the choice that you are a muslim. ANd islam is your religion and testify the kalimah... And Allah will purify your heart and give you a chance to start again. fresh.
When you fall do not be afraid to get right back up again.
your mistakes are not sins. it is when you know the truth and you go against your heart, is when it is considered sinning. So no need to feel guilty anymore.
Im here for you brother, every step of the way.
:wa: