Originally Posted by AnonymousGender
I've not got much knowledge compared to others here but i'll try to help best i can :).
Firstly, self harm is wrong, and you understand that, but you continue to do it. Now i know you think it gives you some control over your life but you need to realise that it will only escalate and get even worse, and it does not give you any control at all, that’s just something you believe.
You mentioned that you moved away to a new location away from family and friends, which is obviously hard because you are in a place you may not be familiar with and same goes for the residents. I suggest you visit the local mosque or another place which may have a muslim community, because you will find it easier find help and make friends. I must admit that just like you, I myself cannot get up in the morning because i feel the day is pointless and sometimes feel very sad and empty, but i find the strength to go about with my daily duties. I too am stressed most of the time, and it is hard to calm down and relax, but even prayer can help you calm down. I suggest you speak to your husband about your stress and the need for some company.
You also mentioned marriage problems, if you don’t mind me asking what are they? Is he not being supportive? Abusive? Something else maybe? Whatever it may be, you need to sit down with him and have a talk and if he fails to realise possible get in touch with an imam who may be able to help you. You mentioned it’s hard to get work, don’t give up just keep trying, inshallah you will find a job soon.
May Allah ease your situation and help you with your problems, Inshallah.