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Güven
Glad to see you alive and well, sis. It's been a while. :D
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Güven
Im no good at giving advice anymore, so I'll leave it to experts.
May Allah help you.
I remember u, the turkish dude. Sokay and thank u anyway =)
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Abdullahii
sister your addiction to music is a chemical one, listening to music releases endorphins and endorphins make you feel good so whenever you feel stressed the only thing that comes to mind is music and your brain is fixated to that, you have to find other avenues to relief stress you cannot carry on like this.....do something that you really enjoy which is halal...like exercising...writing rhymes whenever you're stressed and i know you can drop some mean lines! Keep strong!
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Abdullahii
Remember the more satanic music you listen to the more you'll be thrown into oblivion and also remember that the battle wont be over until you stop breathing..so the shaytan hasnt taken over you!!
It’s funny I still need to use dictionary.com to understand most of these posts XD
I exercise all the time, but I can never do it unless I have my pretty pink mp3 player with me. Everytime I add a song, I feel worse. It’s up to 275 tracks now and I feel like I actually have a statistic of my sins. 275 sins. 275 reasons to burn in hell. 275 blazing rods to my ears. 275 scorching steps onto flaming glass pieces. 275 sins + the unknown other part of the sins that I don’t have exact numbers of.
I write poems and and rhymes all the time also, I can stay up for hours to do that into the middle of the night, but I need background music to pump me up. Sometimes I stay up all night on the treadmill but nobody knows, and the music is blasting in my ear the whole time. I know that dua in the night is the best dua, and the prayer in the night is the best prayer. But I just can’t do that. I can never make myself get off the treadmill or the books enough to make wudhu and actually PRAY. It’s like…starting an essay. Yea that’s it. It’s exactly like starting an essay. U know u have to do it or u flunk out. Mr. whatever is going to kick u out if u fail. And u waste time doing everything else there is to do in the world but u can NEVER start the freakin essay. U know u should but u just cant. This is way worse though because u don’t flunk out of the dudes classroom, u flunk out of LIFE.
I understand what ur sayin, what with the music making me feel better and take away stress. When I actually read that, I know it’s true. I’m always stressed and I like to stay alone most of the time. I hate people. I can’t stand anyone around me anymore because every single person I know criticizes me for what I do (“look at her with the shaitans in her ears all the time”) i’m not trying to change for them, to shut them up, I’m trying to change for ME becausei KNOW They’re right. I just hate how they tell me it. They can never say “Oh dude she’s psychotic get her into therapy before she goes to hell” I’d appreciate that so much more…..well not really the therapy but the
help! I want help not hate. I hate hate. I hate people who hate. And I hate the dude who made hate. Stupid devil.
I know I’m stressed. I know that school is driving me crazy; I’m an honor student and I’m taking college classes, yet nobody is proud of that, which drives me crazier.
I know that my books are about to be published and I’ve started two more books; which is really hard because stupid literary agents are sooooooooooooooooooooooo strict! But they’ve finally accepted, and my books will finally be published, but it just puts all the stress more on me because I need to take time for this part of my life ALONE. Which is pretty hard to get.
I know that i have deen to hold up, not just one of the life distractions, which means I gotta pray all 5, and gotta make em sincere. That’s hard. Like…very hard. For me at least. And a million more things.
And of course, I KNOW that music lets me out of this stupid world for a small moment. It’s like my free getaway for 30 minutes. I don’t hear anyone. I don’t see anyone. It’s like dying…but in a haram way. I’d rather die. But I don’t wanna die YET. Because I know that if I were to die right now, I’m straight to hell. I know that you’re probably gonna say “oh no, that’s not a good way to go sister, prayer is an even better getaway…dua is like floating on clouds….-something awesome that u guys always say-“ but I will never be able to do that. I can never take myself out of music. I actually wouldn’t even mind going to JAIL for three years or even five or ten or twenty, as long as I have my cute pink mp3 with me and a laptop to charge it! That’s insane. I’m insane. Insanity goes to hell = I go to hell.
Thanks bro, I appreciate all the help, and I love the way u brought out the logic of WHY I listen to music. Maybe if I was in a…idk the middle of a forest. And I didn’t have my ipod. I wouldn’t actually want to listen to it. As long as I’m alone in the forest. I would just need my prayer rug, and a quran. That’s all I would need to survive in there. No food no beds no people no nothing. I know I would love that if that would be possible because I’d be sure I’d be a MUCH MUCH MUCH better person than I am right now. I would feel at least a tiny ping of enthusiasm, thati would at least feel a little bit like a real “truemuslim” who would actually might just maybe have a chance to go to heaven.
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Alpha Dude
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Alpha Dude
Is this truemuslim?
1. By consensus, with the exception of duff, no other form of music is acceptable.
If the nasheeds you are talking about use duff, then they're ok.
In any case, the motive behind anybody's use of haram instrument is irrelevant. There is only one immediate issue that must be thought of by you and that is whether or not what you are listening to is permissible. There is no need to delve into and overthink the issue bar this detail.
2 & 3. Allah says if we go walking toward him, he comes running toward us.
Wholeheartedly believe it and strive to take genuine and sincere steps toward Allah.
Try this for a few nights and whenever you feel low in connection with Allah:
Seclude yourself some place where you wouldn't be interrupted. After having made wudhu, pray two nafil rakat and sit down to make dua.
You ask Allah to forgive all your past sins, the ones that you know of and those that you don't, then ask Allah to guide you always.
In the dua, you ask Allah will full concentration as though you really are asking of an All hearing, All merciful being that will most definitely give you what you ask for.
4. Some tips I would give anybody that is suffering from sihr:
i. Keep firm faith in Allah above all else.
ii. Strive to make it your purpose in life to attain the pleasure of Allah and have little desire to seek the treasures and happiness of this world.
iii. Strive to fulfil all commandments of Allah. Pray all salah, fast on the appropriate days, give zakat and charity when necessary etc
iv. Pray Surah Baqarah in the house as often as possible, at least every 3 days. It's a long surah so perhaps split it up so that you finish within the three days. If time is a limiting factor, read as much of it as possible. Some is better than nothing. Play the surah on MP3 each day full too. Shaytanic jinns can't enter such a house in which this surah is recited for 3 days, as far as I am aware.
iv. Pray Ayatul Kursi as well as the last three surahs of the Qur'an all thrice after each salah.
v. Prior to sleeping, pray the last three surahs, blow into your hands and wipe your hands over as much of your body that can be reached. Do this thrice. Also recite Ayatul Kursi.
vi. Try to stay in a state of wudhu as often as possible. Sleep in a state of wudhu too.
vii. Adopt patience and recognise this is Allah's test for you.
InshaAllah consistent practice of the above will help. Try also to seek out the help of qualified and trustworthy people that are known to help in the removal of sihr. Watch out for fakes though, there's a lot out there.
Yea it’s me. I’d be very very surprised if u know a more psychotic, faithless, stupid, stubborn, insane person like me.
I get it, and I think you’re right. I think I just KNOW that all music with more than a duff are haram. And I just want something to give me permission to let me be free in my own little cage of music without going to hell for it.
I guess I’m more of crawling towards Allah. I wish I had a t-mobile connection with allah, it never cuts up no matter where u are and what ur goin through. But instead my connection with allah is like my internet connection – very crappy. Every night I think that my tears have finally run out, but when I’ve finally almost gotten close to entering dreamland, they burst out. I get up and get on my knees and ask allah for forgivness for every single thing that I’ve done, and sometimes I don’t even realize what they are. I can’t talk to anybody or trust anybody or ask anyone for advice, which is why i’ve came here. You guys used to tell me not to keep everything inside me, not to hide everything with a smile, and I guess it’s true, I hide it from people, but explode like “Little Boy” in front of god, and yet it feels like he’s up there laughing at me. Knowing where I’m already going he’s probably not trying to help me because he already knows that when I’m __ years old I will die by a ____ and go to hell. so there’s no hope. But I keep trying and I keep fighting and u guys say the battles never over until I die so I keep going and I’ve never stopped. I never feel better. And sometimes it feels like not only humans have betrayed me, but god has. Because I ask god for something, for help, in really really strict and scary situations, and after I pray in silence quickly, and for once it actually feels sincere, I go out there and I’m trusting him, I have all my faith in him and I feel like he’s put a titanium shield over me to protect me from what’s to come, but I get shot down immediately in the battlefield and I realize I’ve been betrayed. That’s the worst betrayal u can ever feel, betrayed by god. That’s one of the things that I actually KNOW bring my faith down, because it’s like if you’re running to your mom for help to seal up a wound, and she says “Okay darling” and she brings out the bandages and kisses u and makes u feel safe, imagine if she betrays u right there, after u feel amaan, u feel trust and safety in her hands, but imagine if she actually does something else…like cuts ur leg off or something. That’s what it feels like. And that’s why I find it hard to get closer to allah, because no matter how desperate I am, and how hard I beat myself up and how sincere I make myself, everything just gets worse. That makes it harder. That makes me give up. And I don’t give up easily but it actually stoops me down to that level.
That sihr part of your post is very very helpful. Do you have a link of the ayat alkursi and surat al baqarah? I’ve tried getting it off limewire but all the ones I get from there need to be beat down by Malwarebytes, so they don’t work. Thank you so much alpha. Btw, do u know if the surah’s and stuff that you said can actually help push away sihr from the home even after it’s been here for two decades? Or is it just to avoid sihr from entering? I will try to put the surah’s and on my mp3 and force myself to play them instead of the music. I feel like a weights been lifted off my heart already lol. Thank u so much bro. really. U’ve always had the best advice. Bless ya XD
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nightstar
is this truemuslim, if it is we missed you and your poems
try not to bang ur head against the table, but yea it’s me. I just came for advice and I’ll leave quickly before anyone turns insane. btw my poems sucked =p I laugh at what I used to write now. I like what I have now. Three more notebooks have filled up… oh yeeaaa. XD
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Crazy_Lady
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Crazy_Lady
LOL
She's back huh? Where ya been hidin, still teh same eh? :p..
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Was hiding in my cute little pink musical world. Missed ya sis. Good to know ur all well. And yea I’m the same, and much worse. But hey my grades have gotten up lol. I’ve gone from a straight F student to an honor student in the national honor society. I wish my faith could take that jump too.
XD I’m surprised u haven’t changed ur name yet, realizing I’M the insane one, you still have ur name Crazy lady. XD
I’m desperate for change. I think it’s kinda crazy but i’ve actually asked allah to let me die on this certain day…may 13..and even though he probably won’t really do that, I feel like it really would happen. So it’s like I set a goal deadline and I have to fix myself before that. I did this wayyy back on new years so I’ve had lots of time, but I still am struggling to change. Which is why I’ve blown up.
I also was wondering about playing the lottery. Ok so I go to the store and see this cute instant lotto machine, so I get a ticket and win $200, I give every single penny of that to poor people ($100 – to charity, other $100 – aunties in yemen who’ve gone broke…) but someone tells me after I’ve bought it and won, “dude! U’ve got luck! Too bad it’s haram. U should stop playin” im like…..??? now u tell me??? Like seriously? And they were there too watching me buy and send so… so anyway. Is it really haram if I’m saving a bunch of people from starving to death??? Just because of the way that I got the money? PERSONALY I think that if I win money, and people are being saved from starvation from that very money that I won, and I’m not taking even a single penny for myself, then that isn’t haram. Besides if I didn’t get the money, somebody else would have, and they probably wouldn’t have sent anything to poor people, they probably would’ve used the $200 to buy a freakin x360. I know a bunch of people who’ve won around that much and lower sometimes higher in lotto’s and they don’t send it to poor people, they buy ipods and games for their wii and stuff. And even if I don’t send the money to poor people around the WORLD, I would use it to feed my family. I think that wouldn’t be haram either. U know how hard it is to find a job today in ohio?? (answer: very hard) my dad’s retired and my brothers can’t find jobs, nobody else works and we have 11 ppl in this house! So if we play and win lotto and use the money to save ourselves and/or other people, how the hell is that haram? Please enlighten me =)
NOTE: I don’t want it to seem like I’m just complaining, because I don’t complain. It’s just that I can’t trust anybody, which includes the people I’ve trusted all my life who have finally showed me their real face now. So I come in here where nobody knows who I am and see if there’s a willing helping hand out their in the dark crowd. It’s clear there is more than one though. I love u guys XD
ANOTHER NOTE: I’m not really crazy, I think I’ve actually got half my mind to realize I’m DOING haram. That’s gotta count for something right? I rant a lot and I talk a lot when I’m stressed and feel like I’m on the verge of bursting out to tiny little pieces like poor little Hiroshima. So please forgive my sane insanity. (lol I think this note just made u think I’m more insane that u already thought =p forgive me) XDDD