Originally Posted by anonymous
Asalaamu Alaikum Wr Wb, jazakallah khayran for sharing your issue with us. Firsly my brother you must realise that it is forbidden for you to have any kind of relations or contact with any girl before marriage.
A Hadith narrated by Al-Tabari and Al-Baihaqi on the authority of Ma`qil ibn Yassar that the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “It would be better for one of you to have himself stabbed on the head with an iron needle than to touch a woman that is illegal for him.”
You must fear Allah because if you were to die in the state of having relations with her then what would become of you and what would you say to Allah? A relationship is not a guarantee for marriage and that is why so many get so hurt because they pursue haraam relations before marriage and then go through pain and torture when things go wrong. It will obviously end in a bad way because it started in a bad way.
The couple create false dreams and hopes in their little bubble and then their relationship does not end up going towards marriage and they end up getting scarred for a very long time finding it difficult to move on. You must not make this mistake and you cannot expect to get blessings in your pursuit for marriage if you are having relations or contact with her, therefore you must cut off all contact with her immediatley.
Secondly you should realise that Allah has given our parents particularly our mothers the highest of status. They bore us in their stomachs for 9 months and raised us all of our lives and have done so much for us that we cannot even comprehend. We are in the protection of their duas and the love they have for us is incomparable. Therefore we must NEVER even say "uff" to them let alone shout and argue with them. Even if they treat us the worst and oppress us, we are obliged to treat them the best . So be patient towards your mother and always think to yourself of what she has done to you for shaythan wants to build up hatred and resentment inside of you towards your mother because he knows this will destroy you.
Therefore treat your mother the best no matter what she does towards you and speak to her in a loving and gentle manner always keeping in the back of your mind that she ONLY deserves the best treatment no matter what she does towards you. Surely your children will treat you the way you treated your mother and parents.
In regards to your situation then know that it does not mean just because you happen to have had a relationship with this girl that she is the best for you for marriage. If she had relations with you then surely she is capable of having relations with others. You must go to an experienced and reliable scholar and discuss your situation with him and he will advise you best as to what your next steps should be. If he thinks it is best then he may even mediate things between your family and hers but he will know what to do after you tell him properly about your situation.
Therefore follow his advice, treat your mother the best always and NEVER even say "uff" to her and leave all contact and interaction with her immediatley and tell her that you must do things the right way. Ask of Allah to do what is best for you and if you end up marrying her then that is what is best for you but if you don't then Allah has someone better for you so have FULL trust in him and rely upon him for he will do what is right and best for you and we do not know what is best for us.
and Allah knows best in all matters