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unbiased? not sure...
let me decipher what i can from your post:
Ok so here it is, i was talking to my mum about me being a muslim and she said thursday night i can either be a muslim or a spiritualst i can`t be both.
your mom is a ...spiritualist? and you're worried that she'll be "biased against you" if you become a Muslim?
Do you think it`ll be ok for me to come back to islam after my mum has passed over?
well, do you know how long you will live? do you have a guarantee that you will out live your mom?
fact: my mom, as well as my sisters, are Catholic. once i became a Muslim i began calling my mom regularly [or semi-regularly], we are now closer than ever.
opinion: you understand Islam for the most part, but you feel like a nOOb. as a nOOb, you [feel that you] KNOW there is NO WAY that you can explain Islam sufficiently to ANYONE so that they could understand your choice. ergo, mom will never understand, we'll drift apart...
opinion: MAYBE Allah is guiding you at this particular time IN ORDER to save your mom as well! Allah chose these moments for you to ponder the questions that you are dealing with, it's called Qadr.
problem: how do you "master" the topic of Islam in order to spread understanding of it?
i know of 4 brothers to turn to:
Dr Bilal Philips, his Foundations of Islamic Studies, found at the bottom of this page, is nearly 18 hours long and gives the best overall English explanation of the din [the all inclusiveness of the Religion]:
http://www.bilalphilips.com/bilal_pa...sk=view&id=288
he also has online courses:
http://www.islamiconlineuniversity.c...rses&Itemid=20
the Mufti of Zimbabwe, Ismail ibn Musa Menk. probably the most dynamic Muslim preacher/speaker i've ever heard! i've learned an enormous amount from him. you can hear alot of his lectures here:
http://www.muftimenk.co.za/Downloads.html
Dr Bashar Shala. my FAVORITE Islamic historian. he's currently redoing his Seerah, but also check out the Stories from al Kahf:
http://www.pleasantviewschool.com/me...wi%20%28saw%29
Al Kahf:
http://www.pleasantviewschool.com/me..._Surah_Al-Kahf
and this new source that i just found this week, Sheikh Abdullah al Farsi. you can download his lectures and burn them with pretty good quality. this set on the pillars of iman is great at about 6 hours long:
http://www.qsep.com/EemanDVD/index.htm
just click on the topics, Allah, Angels, Books, Messengers, Last Day or Predestination. each will take you to a page to download that set. you can fit it on 2 dvds quite easily.
for Dawah specific, Kamal el Mekki is a genius:
http://www.kalamullah.com/kamal-el-mekki.html
i hope that this helps you, In Sha'a Allah.
May Allah make it easy on you and may He guide you and yours, Ameen.
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