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Ummu Sufyaan
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sometimes when we fall into wrong doings (religious related or otherwise) we may feel guilty. this guilt tends to makes us paranoid and we want to desperately cover it up..this thought leads to fear (that we wont be able to cover it up and that people will find out). this fear has us constantly thinking that we arent doing anything to cover it up and that people can read our minds and find out our secrets.
im not saying this is what is happening to you or that you are guilty of something, but this could be a reason and if it is the case, then you shouldn't worry about what others think, especially if you have committed a sin since it is only between you and Allah.
constant fear and paranoia can lead to 2 things:
1. ironically, fear and paranoia may lead us to falling into something we have been avoiding...that is people finding out what we are trying to hide since out of that fear and paranoia we somehow manage to "dob" ourselves in (this is in the case were we are guilty of something).
2. falling into something worse than what we are covering. the result of irrational is relay ever rational.
there is obviously a cause to this type of behavior because (and with due respect) this irrational behavior isn't actual normal...it isn't normal to assume that people can read your mind (people usually cant) so there is something triggering it that needs to be dealt with, and not so much the actual paranoia itself.
you should do extra ibaadah and concentrate on your aakhira as these usually are an "anesthetic" to the problems of this world.
also, make dua for allah to make things easy for you and to cure you.
Thank you for your response. I understand what you are saying from a rational point of view. Wrong doings you refer to depends upon the person and his environment and upbringing. But I can assure you I am an utterly simple person. I don't smoke , drink , do drugs, never cheated anybody, never conspired against anybody, tried to hurt anybody, or anything that comes that falls really wrong under a normal radar. Unfortunately, I am a straight arrow, and speak my mind without sugarcoating .
Believe me, I know were you are coming from. I didn't believe this problem for a year. I came to this conclusion after a lot of deliberation .
I say that someone has purposfully done this, because a couple of months before this problem came to appear I had a confrontation with a person who insulted my father and i defended him and tempers flaired. The person of concern left for a few days to go to his village, after he came back my father fell ill and i started facing this problem.
I know the differnce between right and wrong on a basic level , and morally i consider myself to be a good person. I don't believe I have done anything to deserve this constant ridicule.
My concern with this problem is that someone may try to hurt me or family and daily life has become quite difficult. Because this has meant that socially I have become almost completely withdrawn.
I see people making fun of me and ridiculing me , people around my building , or friends who overnight had become aloof and other stuff.
I had read that jinns can peek in to the head of human beings, can teleport and speak into the ears of human beings.
I would just like some help as to how this is happening. How is this possible, and how I can hope to solve this, and so far whatever I have tried have failed.