Originally Posted by serena77
Hello there Serena, it is natural to be in fear of something that one does not understand or has not yet experienced. I was in fear of high school when i was at Juniors because i did'nt know what it will be like but when i got there i thought "Why was i ever worried"?
I was also in fear of college when i was at High school because it was a whole new world for me to go into but when i got there i thought "Why was i ever worried its fine".
I was also in fear of University when i was in College because i thought going out there living on my own and doing everything for myself is like a whole new experience and naturally one is in fear at that stage but when i got there i thought "Why was i ever worried its a good experience."
Sameway you must be in fear of what it will be like when you become a Muslim inshallah because it is a whole new life changing experience for you but when you become a Muslim inshallah then you will feel like a big burden lifted off of your shoulders and you will feel more amazing than you have ever imagined possible and you will think "Why did'nt i ever revert earlier this is nothing like i imagined for this feeling is beyond comprehension". By the way I am basing these reactions on the experiences of many reverts that i have known in my life and from what i have seen but of course every person is different but i am sure you feel feel similar to how they felt if not even better.
So Serena what i would say to you is marriage will not be what you think it is right now because naturally we fear what we don't understand or what we haven't experienced. Once you do get married inshallah then you will think "Why didn't i ever get married earlier". Again this is based on the experiences of many married people i have known in my life and from what i have seen, as i myself am not married as yet but marriage is such a beautiful thing and i am sure you will feel similar if not even better to how they felt when they got married for the first time.
So right now at this stage in your life concentrate on Islam and once you have taken the step to revert then you can think about other things like marriage etc. As long as you do things in the right way as in Islamically go about looking for marriage and do everything within the boundaries of Islam then everything in your life will click into place like a jigsaw puzzle i promise you.
And Allah knows best in all matters