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anonymous
salaam -
Hamza Brother - i dont think you understand , i dont do any of the above -
I dont these images in my head - im not creating them myself - they are like when you get waswas and you cant control them -
i never touch my self like that - i hate this - why would i get sooo depressed or cry all the time if thisz was all me
I dont know what why this is happening - evertime i get images like this i feel like im sinning - i hate it sooo much
ever since coming back from Omrah last march - ive become more practicing - i pray 5 times a day - i read the Quran - i try to be good
i dont know what else to do - why is this happening to me- ive just got over these waswas - i still get them but ive learnt to ignore them -
im scared all the time - i feel like im doomed which ever way i look
Assalamu alaykum,
May Allah reward brother Hamza for his beneficial posts. Being afflicted with the most severe waswas, and especially of this nature may be not be easy to understand if one hasn't experienced this kind of thing themselves, but by avoiding those things bro Hamza mentioned, we can reduce the risk of becoming easy targets for the shaytaans to influence our minds. Therefore do seek benefit from his posts inshaAllah.
Like yourself, I
have suffered from severe waswas but not of the same nature, so I can relate to some of what you said. However, it's not so much the nature of the waswas that's the problem, it's the severity and constant presence that's hard to deal with. I found that other than seeking protection by reciting Surah an-Nas, al Falaq, Ayatul Kursi and the last two verses of al Baqarah, it was the recitation of Surah Ar Rahman that finally freed me of this torture. I didn't recite Surah Ar Rahman for any reason except for the my love for Allah, and due to my love for it, I was sometimes reciting it up to 3 times a day. And one day, not long after developing this habit, I realized I'm no longer suffering from severe waswas any more. It just happened without me knowing. I was aware the waswas were trying come at me. I could feel the thought trying to get to me, but it was as if was a barrier between it and my mind, and before they could enter my mind, they'd be destroyed. It reminded me of when meteorites come hurtling towards the earth, but are destroyed by the upper atmosphere before they hit us. I have no doubt Allah granted me refuge from waswas by the blessings of Surah Ar Rahman, and my love for it. No doubt the shaytaans hate your increase in imaan, mashaAllah. They are bombarding you from every side to make you fall. InshaAllah fight them as we have been taught by Rasulullah, sallalahu alayhi wa sallam, and seek refuge from Allah in the healing and blessings He has placed in the Quran. That doesn't mean just reciting it without paying attention to it. But by loving it. Adoring it. Understanding it. Loving it. Because it is a Book from Allah. His Speech. His Message written especially for us (mankind). Allah is addressing us with Kindness, giving us hope of His forgiveness, and warning us of His punishments. Reminding us of His rewards, and guiding us through a life of trials and tribulations. Who else cares that much for our fate? No one but Allah! Love the Quran (and loving the sunnah will follow) and live by it, and no shaytaan will want to be in your company for as long as you do.
Wish to share in general..
Love is the most powerful emotion in the world. Humans are willing to go to any length to attain the one they desire. But the love for a human being is bound by human needs, and deny as they might, to conditions. But love for Allah frees one from the desires of the world, and its worries. It's not love when people claim to love Allah but disobey Him and His Rasool (saw) for their own pleasures. Love of Allah overrides all desires that are displeasing to Him, and take you away from Him. You cannot claim to love Allah, then want to live in big houses, pursue wealth and worldly comforts (often by haram means) and disobey His Commands. When you love Allah, you worry about putting a step wrong - even when no one is watching. Your needs become basic. You don’t fret about where your next meal is coming from. Food becomes a basic need, not a gluttonous love affair. You know as long as you don’t sit there twiddling your thumbs, and make an effort, Allah is The Sustainer and He WILL provide. You know your ‘unanswered’ prayers will reveal rewards in the Akhirah. You know that hardships are tests, that if we bear them with patience, Allah will love and reward us, and if they are punishments, then they reduce our punishments in the Akhirah. You know that if someone does wrong to you, they have only wronged themselves. You know that pain and illness are a means of expiation of sins. You never complain. Your heart is deeply aware of the blessings Allah has given you in your life. You are continuously thanking Him, and not desiring more. You shake at the thought of His punishments and strive hard to avoid sinful actions. And when you are weak, you feel regret sorrow and shame, and seek His forgiveness through sincere repentance. You don’t desire worldly possessions because spiritually and emotionally you are not in the duniya. You're already in the Here-after. You’re dreaming of the time you can be with Allah in the shade of HisThrone. That’s your dream. Your goal. You feel imprisoned in the dunya, dying to escape – aware of your sins and unsure of your fate but still holding tightly to hope of Allah’s mercy and forgiveness. You reject pleasing people over the pleasure of Allah. The love of Allah frees a man from the burdens of carrying unfulfilled desires, and of the trouble to attain them. You feel at peace.You know that Allah never does bad for anyone, but we only do bad for ourselves. Even others we do good for can do bad for us. But from Allah, there is no reward for good, other than good. There is no love like loving Allah, and NO love is greater than the love Allah has for His obedient servants.
هَلْ جَزَاءُ الإحْسَانِ إِلا الإحْسَانُ The Glorious Quran 55:60
Is there any reward for good other than good?
Fi aman Allah.