Assalaamu Alaaykum
I am really sorry to hear about your situation, but do not give up.
What you wrote was definetly not crap, your intention was to ask for help so you did, so please do not feel bad about it. I will try answer your questions one by one insha'Allaah.
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anonymous
Q:SHOULD I LEAVE MY PARENTS HOUSE AND GET MY OWN PLACE? if i do that i think i will be happier
I believe you should get your own place if thats what makes you happy, but do not disown your parents, continue to show them respect no matter what the situation may be. So if you find it difficult to deal with them, ask Allaah to help you to make it easy for you. Remember him and cry to him. He listens.
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anonymous
Q:CAN I CANCEL THE ENGAGEMENT WITH OUT HURTING ANY 1?
Brother, it is your life and your happiness. If you do not wish to marry the women who you are engaged to, then you dont have to. It is your right to say no Islamically if you do not wish to go ahead. If you are not satisfied with this women, insha'Allaah try find someone who is your type.
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anonymous
Q:CAN I BE A GOOD HUSBAND AND GIVE ALL MY LOVE TO MY FIANCE?
You can once she is your wife, when you are married, you can give all your love to her.
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anonymous
Q:CAN I COMMIT SUICIDE BEFORE MARRIAGE OR AFTER ? WHICH ONE IS A NOT A SIN
No you cannot commit suicide. Reason is if you do, you will be in more pain if you kill yourself. It is a sin to commit suicide. You are the creation of Allaah, Allaah only takes your life not you.
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anonymous
Q:CAN I KILL OR DO SOMETHING BAD TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO DID THIS TO ME? MEANING TRY TO RAPE ME
No you cant do anything bad to those people who did bad to you as it just makes things worse, and it is known as revenge, revenge isnt part of Islaam. But when someone tries to attack you, you have the right to defend yourself in the cause of defending yourself or those around you.
My advice is to perform your daily prayers as its best for you, and more pleasing to your lord, it only benefits you. To trust in Allaah and ask him to help you, meaning complain to Allaah only. Recite the Qur'aan, read about the stories of the prophets, they were lessons for us to learn from, you will find ease when you read about there stories.
Only think good and not bad for someone, ask Allaah to guide your parents to do whats right for them and their children. And do not give up, if you give up, then your a loser, in this life and the hereafter, because you will only be in more pain,depression of you give up in this. Think of this as a test from Allaah. Oh and Allaah cares, do not lose hope in Allaah.
You are in my Du'aas, may Allaah swt ease your situation brother, Ameen
Watch this short video, insha'Allaah it really does help