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Hassan1987
Since i did Umrah last year i've ended up doing loads of bad stuff that i though i would not do
And ever since this year started i've been feeling like i need to be punished by myself to learn some harsh lessons
So i have a ticket booked to Spain next week
plan is to walk from Spain all the way to london on a very very tight budget and completely rough it all the way.
If i make it to london , i'll feel like Allah wants me to do more and not quit so easy
Asalaamu Alaikum, jazakallahu khayr for sharing your issues with us.
My brother Allah has already told us in the Qur'an what we need to do after we commit sin:
Your Lord hath inscribed for Himself (the rule of) mercy: verily, if any of you did evil in ignorance, and thereafter repented, and amended (his conduct), lo! He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
(Al-An`am 6:54)
Allah says in a hadith Qudsi:
"O son of Adam, as long as you call upon Me and put your hope in Me, I have forgiven you for what you have done and I do not mind. O son of Adam, if your sins were to reach the clouds of the sky and then you would seek My forgiveness, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, if you were to come to Me with sins that are close to filling the earth and then you would meet Me without ascribing any partners with Me, I would certainly bring to you forgiveness close to filling it."
In this Hadithi Qudsi, Allah gives hope to mankind more than any other narration. It displays the quality and attribute of Allahs mercy. Indeed, He is ar-Rahman, the Most Compassionate, and ar-Raheem, the Most Merciful.
In this Hadithi Qudsi, Allah tells man of the greatness of His forgiveness and mercy so that no one would despair due to the amount of sins he may have committed. This is supported by the following verse of the Holy Quran:
Say: O My servants who have transgressed against their own souls, despair not of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Truly, He is Most Forgiving, Most Merciful.
(Surah az-Zumar 39:53)
And whoever does a wrong or wrongs himself, but then seeks forgiveness from Allah, he will find Allah forgiving and merciful.
(Surat an-Nisaa 4:110)
So in order for us to gain forgiveness for sin that we have committed then we should:
1. Sincerely repent
2. Remorseful over sin
3. Intend to never repeat such an action again.
When a person sins and then sincerely turns to Allah for forgiveness, one will find Allah ready to accept his repentance and to forgive him, as this verse indicates:
And whoever does a wrong or wrongs himself, but then seeks forgiveness from Allah, he will find Allah forgiving and merciful.
(Surat an-Nisaa 4:110)
And seek Allahs forgiveness. Certainly, Allah is Forgiving, Merciful.
(Surat al-Muzzammil 73:20)
Will they not repent to Allah and ask His forgiveness? For Allah is the Forgiving, the Merciful.
(Surat al-Maaidah 5:74)
So what Allah wants from you is not to put yourself through unecessery hardship by trekking it back to London from Spain but for you to be remorseful over your sins and repent sincerely to Allah with the intention of never repeating such a sin again.
And invoke Him in fear and aspiration (of hope). Indeed, the mercy of Allah is near to those who do good. (
Surat al-Araaf 7:56)
Get closer to Allah and beg and cry unto him for mercy and forgiveness especially in the latter portions of the night at Tahajjud time which is the time he is most willing to give his mercy and forgiveness to those who ask of him with sincerety and humbleness.
They forsake their beds to call their Lord in fear and hope.
(Surat as-Sajdah 32:16)
Do everything to please him and refraining from anything which displeases him.
Allah loves repentance and loves those who turn to him in repentance:
Truly Allah loves those who turn [to Him] in repentance, and He loves those who keep themselves in purity.
(Qur'an 2:222)
Allah loves repentance and loves those who repent so repent unto Allah in every dua especially in the latter portions of the night and replace the sins with good deeds. Thats what he really wants from you.
And those who, when they commit a lewd act or wrong themselves with evil, remember Allah and ask forgiveness for their sinsand who forgives sins except Allah? And they do not persist in what (wrong) they were doing while they knew it. For such, the reward is forgiveness from their Lord and Gardens with rivers flowing through, wherein they shall abide forever. How excellent is the reward of the doers (of good)!
(Surah Ali Imran 3:135-136)
And Allah knows best in all matters