Bro, ask Allah to help you try to be patient. Remember Allah is most Just. I hope you will feel better after watching these videos.
Narrated Abu Sa'id Al-Khudri and Abu Huraira (Radi-Allahu 'anhum):
The Prophet (SAWS) said, "No fatigue, nor disease, nor sorrow, nor sadness, nor hurt, nor distress befalls a Muslim, even if it were the prick he receives from a thorn, but that Allah expiates some of his sins for that."
Bukhari Vol. 7 : No. 545