there are satans among jinn and mankind - and they are both capable of whispering evil into your mind:
In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.1. Say: I seek refuge with the Lord and Cherisher of Mankind,
2. The King (or Ruler) of Mankind,
3. The God of Mankind,-
4. From the evil of the withdrawing Whisperer,
5. Who whispers into the breasts of Mankind,-
6. From among Jinns AND among men.
so we are told in the LAST chapter of the Quran that JInn AND men have or shall have the power to inspire evil.
it may be a test that Allah allows you to be put through to purge you of evil and make you strong - but the evil itself comes from Satan and his followers.
just be careful, in the world of man - make sure your doors are dead-locked before you sleep.
and in the world of the unseen - you must refer to the sources of knowledge and stick firmly to it.
satan has different methods, if fear doesn't work - he'll make it look as if you are required to do things outside the fold of Islam in order to do right (harming innocents in the name of Islam etc and landing in hell)
if that doesn't work he'll whisper temptations and useless stuff to fill your brain with.
you are being tested - you must stay firm and stick to the sources - or they'll drive you into confusion and doubt.
Sheikh Abdul Qadir al-Jeelaanee (1077-1166 CE), gave an account of an incident which he once experiened. This incident contains an explanation for both the visions of those who claim to have seen Allah, aswell as the reason why they often discard basic Islamic practises after such visions.
“One day,” he said, “I was deeply involved in worship when all of a sudden I saw before me a grand throne with a brilliantly shining light surrounding it. A thunderous voice then struck my ears:
‘Oh ‘Abdul-Qaadir, I am your Lord! For you I have made lawful that which I have forbidden for others’.”
‘Abdul-Qaadir asked, “Are you Allah besides whom there is no god?”
When there was no answer, he said; “Get away, Oh enemy of Allah.” And with that, the light vanished and dark-ness blanketed him.
The voice then said, “‘Abdul-Qaadir, you have succeeded in defeating my strategy because of your understanding of the religion and your knowledge.
I have managed to misguide over seventy worshippers by such incidents.”Afterwards, the people asked ‘Abdul-Qaadir how he realized that it was Satan.
He replied, “I recognized that it was Satan by his claim that Allah made lawful for me what He had forbidden to others,
because I knew that the divine law revealed to the Prophet (pbuh) could not be cancelled or changed.
I also realized who it was when Satan announced that he was my Lord, but was unable to confirm that he was Allah who is without any partner.”
Similarly some people in the past have reported that they have seen the Ka’bah and circled it in visions. Others have reported that a great throne was stretched out before them with a glorious being seated on it and a large number of men were ascending and descending around it. They considered the men to be angels and the glorious being to be Allah, the exalted and glorious, but in fact, it was Satan and his followers.
Consequently, it may be assumed that the basis to claims to seeing, Allah, either in dreams or in broad daylight, can be traced back to Satanic psychological and emotional states. In these states, Satan takes on glorious light forms and claims to those who are experiencing the visions that he is their Lord. Due to their ignorance of pure Tawheed [Monotheism], they accept such claims and thereby go astray.
"At the rate that technology is advancing, people will be implanting chips in our children to advertise directly into their brains and tell them what kind of products to buy,"
Hillary Clinton said at the Kaiser Family Foundation.
if you suspect anything other than that old Satan, you need to make sure you stay active in the community, find strong people, and yes - do speak about it - but never lose heart.
i am relating this to you as one who has been through VERY similar experiences, and i have even lashed out. but realised that Allah is the best of planners and since satan never gives up leading me more and more astray even if i give in - i must strive my utmost to ensure it doesn't happen to others after me.
also go to zmovie and watch - total recall, manchurian candidate, and universal soldier part 2,
it's not a laughing issue - it's real - but may jst be satan the jinn trying to mess with you.
do not tell your family - and do not tell the doctor - ask Allah for his strength, and do your best for others after you.