Trust me Honey; you don`t need to be perfect at all cause the Only Perfect one Is Allah but of course that won`t stop us from trying to do our best always to please our Creator and get closer to Him The Most Merciful The Most Compassionate and also trying our best to avoid sinning and when we slip then we remember that we have Him The Exalted The Most Merciful; we still have choices to repent, to correct our mistakes ; to ask Him AlMighty His forgiveness and pardon , and Allah doesn`t dissappoint His slaves ; those who return to Him and ask His guidance and help, my sweetheart, when you walk to Allah ; He runs to ya The Most Generous and as long as you are striving for His sake then you will see wonders and you won`t ever regret returning to Him Who belong to His all Might and Mejesty... laa ilaha illa Allah
we are human from flesh and blood and we do mistakes and sin, we slip and fall but with Allah`s guidance and the faith He planted in our hearts and made them Revive beating for Him; we will get up and stand so strong and firm on our feet just for His sake no matter how much we may fall then we won`t give up cause we have Him The Creator The Owner of heavens and earth The Lord of Mercy and Forgiveness. May Allah guide us and forgive us all and help us to be His true slaves and servants Ameeeeeeeeen
"The Messenger has believed in what was revealed to him from his Lord, and [so have] the believers. All of them have believed in Allah and His angels and His books and His messengers, [saying], "We make no distinction between any of His messengers." And they say, "We hear and we obey. [We seek] Your forgiveness, our Lord, and to You is the [final] destination." (
285)
Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. "Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people." (
286)"
Surat Al Baqarah
just do what you are able to do and don`t burden your self...step by step then you will find your self so close to Allah in shaa Allah.
and trust me my precious sister , you don`t have to wait all of this time to be a slave and servant for the One, I knew new reverts who embraced Islam knowing nothing but few information and after that Sub`haan Allah ; they learnt many things gradually step by step and their Faith became very strong that non can take that light from them ever no matter what they may do or make things hard for them.
some of the reverts are better than those who born Muslims, I saw this by my own eyes; May Allah guide us all to Him , keep us firm on His way, be with us and be pleased with us always and forever Ameeeeeeeen
May Allah lead your way to the path of the endless true happiness always and forever and the whole world too Ameeeeeeeeen
never let your fears stop ya from being good ever; if surrendering to our fears then we will be trapped forever and we won`t be able to take a step forward and that would cause is weakness, depression and fill our hearts with loneliness, just run to your Lord O slave of Allah Who told us::"And hasten to forgiveness from your Lord and a garden as wide as the heavens and earth, prepared for the righteous (
133)Who spend [in the cause of Allah] during ease and hardship and who restrain anger and who pardon the people - and Allah loves the doers of good; (
134)And those who, when they commit an immorality or wrong themselves [by transgression], remember Allah and seek forgiveness for their sins - and who can forgive sins except Allah? - and [who] do not persist in what they have done while they know. (
135)Those - their reward is forgiveness from their Lord and gardens beneath which rivers flow [in Paradise], wherein they will abide eternally; and excellent is the reward of the [righteous] workers. (
136)" Surat Aal Imraan
"Say, "Never will we be struck except by what Allah has decreed for us; He is our protector." And upon Allah let the believers rely. (
51)" Surat Attawbah
and also:"And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out (
2)And will provide for him from where he does not expect. And whoever relies upon Allah - then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent. (
3)"
and says:"And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him of his matter ease. (
4)"
and then:"and whoever fears Allah - He will remove for him his misdeeds and make great for him his reward. (
5)"
Surat Attalaaq
and always put the following verses in your mind, Surat Azzumar:"Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful." (
53)And return [in repentance] to your Lord and submit to Him before the punishment comes upon you; then you will not be helped. (
54)And follow the best of what was revealed to you from your Lord before the punishment comes upon you suddenly while you do not perceive, (
55)Lest a soul should say, "Oh [how great is] my regret over what I neglected in regard to Allah and that I was among the mockers." (
56)Or [lest] it say, "If only Allah had guided me, I would have been among the righteous." (
57)Or [lest] it say when it sees the punishment, "If only I had another turn so I could be among the doers of good." (
58)But yes, there had come to you My verses, but you denied them and were arrogant, and you were among the disbelievers. (
59)And on the Day of Resurrection you will see those who lied about Allah [with] their faces blackened. Is there not in Hell a residence for the arrogant? (
60)And Allah will save those who feared Him by their attainment; no evil will touch them, nor will they grieve. (
61)Allah is the Creator of all things, and He is, over all things, Disposer of affairs. (
62)"
and May The Peace Be with you Ameeeeeeeeeeen
take care of your precious self my dear always in shaa Allah.
leaving ya under Allah`s sight, care and protection.
Humbly, your sister no matter what you are:
Amat Allah.