Assalamu-alaikum ukthi,
Welcome back to IB : )
We all go through peaks and troughs in our imaans, and no doubt, taking this journey on your own may be a little more challenging.
Which would mean that the rewards that Allah bestows on one who stays on His true path,
despite the difficulties, will be even greater insha Allah!
So dont lose hope, and dont take your eyes off the goal (i.e. the Hereafter, and the meeting with our Lord).
There are many beneficial links to be found here:
http://www.islamicboard.com/new-musl...n-reverts.html
as well as in the 'New Muslims' section of this forum.
Also, actively seek out islamic courses/ classes/ sisters groups/ lectures......anything that will promote contact with other muslimahs, in your area.
And if this is not possible at all, then perhaps as a long-term plan, think about relocating to an area where there are more muslims insha Allah.
Let us know if there is anything that we can assist you with. : )
:wa: