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Asalam alaikum
I feel really guilty when I read that for dua's to be accepted that your income must be halal. After finishing uni in April 2012, mum kept telling me to get a job. During Ramadhan time I used to pray loads esp at time of opening my fast that Allah would help me and that I'd find a job, With the blessing of Allah I got a job where I was allowed to wear my jilbab (I feel so blessed cause the place I work at has a uniform).
I feel guilty that when I applied for this job I lied about my work experience (that I have done work previously- but I hadn't) I lied because it said I needed work experience in this field but wherever I wanted to apply it wanted experience was very hard to get a job that required no previous work experience in that field. The job I applied for was closed and after 2 months the same company that i had previously applied to called me asking if I was interested as they had part time jobs going - (this was during Ramdhan time). I said yes, attended the interview etc and I got the job.
Would my income be wrong/ haram because I lied? I feel so bad about it but at the same time I feel that due to me praying through Ramadhan, Allah blessed me with this job where I was able to wear my jilbab (cause I cannot step outside the house with my jilbab).
Wa-alaikumsalam ukthi,
The fact that you are feeling guilty about this error in judgement is a sign of imaan - and this is insha Allah, a test from your Creator - to see how you would respond in this situation.
Would you give in to the trappings of Shaytaan and this dunya - by continuing with this deception......or would you chose the pleasure of Allah (subhanawataála) over and above everything else?
Ukthi, there is nothing more important than gaining closeness to Allah and earning His pleasure.
No matter how difficult this may seem, despite the possible worldly losses that may result - it would not matter if at the end of the day, you know that your only intention was seeking the pleasure of Allah (subhanawataála).
In cases where we transgress against Allah, then we seek repentance from Him. But in cases where we transgress against others, than it would be necessary to seek forgiveness from them, as well as from Allah.
In view of this, insha Allah, it would be better to reveal this fact to your boss.
Perhaps request to have a meeting with him/ her and then say: there has been something that has been troubling me recently and I thought that it would be important to inform you of it......and when he asks what it is, you can state that when you applied for the job, you were very desperate and in weakness, you provided incorrect employment history. Then mention that this is
unlike your character......to such a point, that you
cannot accept dishonesty from yourself, and hence you have chosen to reveal this information. You can also say how sorry you are for this mistake, and that you would appreciate it if he would continue to give you a chance to prove yourself in terms of skill, etc......
Or something to this effect......
Can you imagine Allah's pleasure when He sees His servant forsaking his desires - only for HIS sake? SubhanAllah.
And what greater bounties lie with Allah!
Whatever we may lose in this dunya, whilst seeking Allah, He most definitely can replace it with even better! And, what can be better than gaining Allah's love?
Remember: "Do not think about how small the sin is, but think about WHO you have disobeyed".
May Allah azza wajjal guide you towards all that is pleasing to Him, and shower you with His mercy and unlimited treasures.
Ameen
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