format_quote Originally Posted by
JordanLA
But I can't seem to just leave Christianity, I feel like I'd be betraying God.
Hello Jordan. I would like to share my experiences with you, so that you might find clarity in your confusion.
I am a former Christian minister, who reverted to Islam a little over 6 1/2 years ago. And just like you, I agonized over what I felt would be a a betrayal of God.
Even though I was charged with bringing others to embrace Christianity, I have always felt that the acceptance and declaration of faith is something that is at our very core. Something so deeply personal to each of us that I should never try to enter that place. So as I was studying Islam and realizing I was conflicted by Christianity, I was all alone. Finally, one cold December morning, I realized I felt extremely vulnerable. I had been examining Islam on another Web site and they offered a toll-free help line. So I called and talked to a wonderful sister who was incredibly patient with me. She didn't try to give me answers to my questions, she kept questioning me, making me look inside myself for the answers. And that morning, she heard me say Shahadah.
Jordan, at that very instant, I felt a sense of peace and joy I had never known.
I suddenly felt a need to be with other Muslims, so I drove to the local masjid. As I knelt in prayer, I realized God was right alongside me, same as He had always been. The only difference was that I could suddenly understand that only He is worthy of my praise and my worship.
If you are comfortable with it, plan a visit to your local masjid. I promise, you will only find friends there you have yet to meet. Explain your conflict and you will find people who are willing to help you.
format_quote Originally Posted by
JordanLA
But, Why would God put this intrest in my heart if he was not trying to show me something?
Ahhhh, my only reply to that is to ask you the same question. Why do
you feel God has placed Islam on your heart?
Since you are a practicing Christian, I suspect I know the biggest, personal obstacle you are facing. I know it stopped me from reverting before I did. Pick up your Bible, Jordan, and read Isaiah 43:11. Reflect on what God has said to us in those words.
I pray this will help you with your discernment and help you dwell in His Peace. If you have any questions, I will do my best to answer them.