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At first I will invite you to visit two thread about my beloved wife that I've ever created.
http://www.islamicboard.com/advice-a...ping-wife.html
http://www.islamicboard.com/general/...one-allah.html
Yes, I love her so much. That's why I didn't want to listen when doctors said that there's no hope for her. I still tried to convince myself that she would be cured. Until finally she's gone in the afternoon, two years ago. It made me 'down'. I really regret, if I knew that she would go, I would love her better. But it's too late.
But then I realized something. I remember her love to me. She always wanted me happy, and she had done many things to make me happy. Suddenly I realized, she didn't want to see me 'down' like that. Then I decided to get up, walk, and continue my life again. I do not want to make her sad 'at there' if I was constantly immersed in regret. I want to make her happy although she is not with me anymore.
Young sister, I can understand if now you are immersed in sadness. I can understand too if you are regret becasue you didn't tell him that you love him when you still had a chance.
But I am sure, if 'at there' he knew that you love him, he didn't to want to see you immersed in sadness and regret. He wanted you to get up and walk again. I am sure, he wanted you to continue your live again, get married with someone who will love you, and live happily with your husband and children.
So, young sister. If you really love him, you should continue your live again. You can give a special room in your heart to remember him. Of course, without disturb your love to your husband in the future.
:)