Thank you all for your time and your responses. A lot of information on there which I will look through properly when I get time. Thanks also for the links and all the advice. I really appreciate it.
At least I have something to look forward to when I get home tonight.
Originally Posted by Lady of peace
I have tried talking to friends and even family about this, but the response I normally get is be patient, it will get better or just move. If only it was as simple as that. Plus my "men" friends don't really do heart to hearts which is also just as annoying. I've tried going to my GP but again, I feel ashamed and embarrassed when I burst into tears.
I try and think positively which a lot of you have suggested, for example, wanting to get married, getting a new job, just thinking happy and positive thoughts but it gets me nowhere as my life just does not change at all. I even go back in time and think about being young and carefree but that depresses me even more when I think about how my life is now.
As for Paradise, I struggle to get through each day as it is now, so thinking about things like Paradise is not something I do or even think about.
Maybe I am just a complete heathen or an imbecile and maybe that's why my life is so awful. I am trying to look through everything I do and stop doing things which would be classed as sinful, but there is not much I do. I go to work, I come home. I look after my Mother. I do all the cleaning. I go to the Masjid. I pray. I help with the cooking. Yeah, I have to resort to watching stupid documentaries etc on my laptop and listening to music when in bed but that's simply to drown out the noise that the pollutants that live next door torture us with . I don't do crazy things like drugs, alcohol, gambling, adultery etc.
Anyway, I am going on and on. I am a disturbed person I guess. I am so unhappy with my life.
Sorry for boring you all and thanks for listening to me drone on again.