Thank you all for your time and your responses. A lot of information on there which I will look through properly when I get time. Thanks also for the links and all the advice. I really appreciate it.
At least I have something to look forward to when I get home tonight.
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Lady of peace
As salaamu alayk brother,
I don't know any muslim counseling. But you can try talking to a family member or a friend that you trust.
You should try praying qayaam al layl. Maybe Allah will make things easier for you. And make Dua, it's important that you do and we will also make dua for you and your family.
Please brother don't commit suicide. I heard people who do, will feel the pain in the grave until the day of resurrection and you'll go to the hellfire. Allah has blessed you with a life, and yes it was meant for us to struggle and go through trials & tribulations. Don't let your life go to waste. Take this as a test and Pass it. Don't you want to go to paradise? Well then you must remain patient and strong. You must connect with the Quran, it's filled with Allah's words. We all struggle and no one is truly happy in the Dunya. Say Alhamahdillah and ask Allah for guidance. Muhammad (pbuh) said that our iman will go up and down. It won't stay at a high point but it will also drop. We must just stay strong and learn from our mistakes. We all sin, there is no one in the whole world that doesn't sin, no one is perfect, we must learn from our sins and seek refuge from them with Allah (swt).
The ease will come soon. Remain patient. ☺
I have tried talking to friends and even family about this, but the response I normally get is be patient, it will get better or just move. If only it was as simple as that. Plus my "men" friends don't really do heart to hearts which is also just as annoying. I've tried going to my GP but again, I feel ashamed and embarrassed when I burst into tears.
I try and think positively which a lot of you have suggested, for example, wanting to get married, getting a new job, just thinking happy and positive thoughts but it gets me nowhere as my life just does not change at all. I even go back in time and think about being young and carefree but that depresses me even more when I think about how my life is now.
As for Paradise, I struggle to get through each day as it is now, so thinking about things like Paradise is not something I do or even think about.
Maybe I am just a complete heathen or an imbecile and maybe that's why my life is so awful. I am trying to look through everything I do and stop doing things which would be classed as sinful, but there is not much I do. I go to work, I come home. I look after my Mother. I do all the cleaning. I go to the Masjid. I pray. I help with the cooking. Yeah, I have to resort to watching stupid documentaries etc on my laptop and listening to music when in bed but that's simply to drown out the noise that the pollutants that live next door torture us with . I don't do crazy things like drugs, alcohol, gambling, adultery etc.
Anyway, I am going on and on. I am a disturbed person I guess. I am so unhappy with my life.
Sorry for boring you all and thanks for listening to me drone on again.