Greetings and peace be with you StrivingforDeen;
So sometimes I become angry like mad and don't know why.
An old Indian saying, there are two wolves inside everyone of us and they are always fighting each other. One is the kind and caring wolf, the other is the angry and violent wolf, the question you have to ask is which wolf wins?
The answer is the wolf you CHOOSE to feed. If you choose to feed the angry wolf, it becomes stronger, and the kind wolf becomes weaker. But it is your choice which wolf you feed, this is a life time struggle, I am only 66.
There is so much injustice in this world, and yes we do have the right to be angry, BUT and it is a big but, if we retaliate in anger, more injustice will happen
The thing I am sure anger is normal.
Love and kindness are also normal, but which is greater? Love or anger.
and everything, but I get physical in these "anger attacks". I don't want to harm anyone,
The person who angers you, controls you, they feed your angry wolf inside. You should be in control of who feeds your wolf.
but I just sometimes sit or walk with people and just feels this itch in my hand. Like I want to punch them.
You can't think clearly with clenched fists. I know two lads who put their fists through windows, I arrived minutes after one of them had done this, and there was a trail of blood across the road. two years later his arm is still a mess.
Two weeks ago, we tried to stop a few lads fighting, one of the lads, punched a window a couple of times and flew into the fight, he came back seconds later with his mouth split open and bleeding knuckles.
Anger is like picking up a burning coal with the intention of throwing it at the person who angers me, the person who gets burned the most is me. The longer I hold onto this burning coal of anger, the hotter it becomes, it eats away at you while you are on your own, your thoughts consume you.
In the spirit of praying for the power to forgive those who anger us.
Eric