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Regrets1
I'm in so much pain today I can't take it:( I'm crying since I woke up keep getting panic attacks, To make myself feel better I keep saying if he had anything like that he would've got in touch and tried blackmailing me but he hasn't so maybe I'm overthinking or maybe he does have it :( even if I get in touch with him he won't accept he's got something like that and I won't believe what he says anyway so no point asking him..in his last text he did say he wants to marry me so maybe I shoul marry him just because of the thoughts I'm having? There is no proof whether he has something like that or not..and if he doesn't then il be stupid to marry him and ruin my life..I'm sorry I'm answering my own questions Iv gone crazy:(
I know it's a test and what happened was a test too..faith in Allah is what keeps me going I don't ask for death or anything all I pray is that I die when Allah is pleased with me may Allah accept my repentance. I'm sorry maybe I shouldn't have come here talking about this but other than crying to Allah and asking for forgiveness I can't speak to anyone I did feel like talking to people I know but I didn't as I don't want to expose my sins I'm keeping everything to myself:( how can I find out if he has anything or not?? Or should I just ignore these thoughts?? Worrying and thinking of something that maybe isn't even true is a sign of weak imaan?? Wish I could just go and hide somewhere..
Assalaamu alaikum, my dear,
(gently)
If he is the sort of man who would put images of you on the internet... how would marrying him protect you? (sigh) You'd just be giving him
more access to you, and therefore
more potential for problems in the future...
My dear, please try to hold onto the positive:
you're getting away from him. And without having to go through any kind of divorce proceedings, or worrying about your children being harmed, or any financial worries... (smile) Thanks to your
iman and perceptiveness, you
didn't get too entangled with this man.
And no matter what he does or does not do,
you are a
decent person. And probably there is
nothing to be concerned about. Trust in God, my dear. Let go of this fear, it cannot help you in any way. It just enslaves you to dark thoughts and puts your peace of mind in another person's power. And potentially opens you up to greater harm.
Hugs, my dear. Forget about him, and accept the caring of the people around you. (smile) Including me. Hugs again.
May God, the Gentle, Help us have the strength to let go.