Originally Posted by salumma
Stay away from the man you think you are in love with sister.
If you do not pursue marriage, then what is the point of engaging in a haraam relationship, because ultimately that is what you're heading towards if you don't cut off whatever ties you have with this person.
It's good that you've acknowledged that it will be haraam, and remember to focus on why we are created in the first place. Everything else, marriage, work, studies, is secondary.
Please be strong insha'Allaah.