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Green.Signal
I have masturbated for 15/16 years but like three times a week by watching porn. I am not proud of it. I have changed all my habits and stopped everything in my knowledge that I am doing wrong and started praying on time, reciting Quran everyday and understanding it and incorporating it in my life. I am monitoring all actions of my tongue, hands, private parts, eyes, ears heart and brain etc...
I am trying my best everyday now never to go back to major sins and trying my utmost best to follow seerah of prophet and doing as much zikr & dua, pray voluntary prayers, giving charity, respecting my parents, keep fast, saving up for Hajj. I am going to umrah soon.
I have no friends and i am not very smart. I... just want to try my best now to reach the highest heaven but coming across surah 23 verse 5 (surah Mu'minoon) 'and those who guard their private parts' and I have lied in my life too.
I am crying because I want to change now and leave those things permanently. I knew a about not going to jannah-ul-firdous if I masturbated and lied but I did it anyway on ocassion. I deeply regret it but never had company in my life. I am not a bad person but commmited lot of major sins. I am consistently asking for forgiveness day and night from allah to show me a sign that I can try and reach jannah-ul-firdous but I feel like even if I change I will never reach firdous because qurans mentions it.
I found this site so that I can get some advise from all of you who are 100 times better than me. Can I reach firdous by doing all of the above.
You joking?!
If you remain on good deeds&ask ALLAH Ta'ala for Jannatul FIrdaws, then ALLAH Ta'ala will grant you!
Believe in Rahma of ALLAH Ta'ala
People have done worse sins & returned to ALLAH Ta'ala & some blessed with Firdaws dreams .........
Don't despair & carry on studying Islam properly & know one thing:
ALLAH mentions in Surah Furqan that those who repent &do good,their sins turns into good deeds biidhnIllah.
Be moderate & continue to do things that are stressed in Islam with much virtues....
There's times when we are fully in strength to do good deeds, we rush like clouds coming for rain&then we LAX ,we tend to lose motivation to do those deeds.
That's why moderation is good!
Keep hope !